Random Musing

Well... I haven't been here for a while.
Hopefully no one ever come here anymore so that i can type and not one will read what i type. you'll be tinking why then i have blog. Might as well just write a journal. But the thing is: without the publish button. I would simply delete what i have written because i know that i would nv have the courage to voice my thoughts and opinions out loud anymore.

Well This week is the start of school and the start of many things. There's just so much to do and so many things that be changed. Over the holidays, i set out to change myself. and now i see that i'm somewhat different no simply the hair but also other things as well.

One, i beginning to voice out more. But i guess i'm still not speaking my true opinions. There's still many to offload before i can truly be an honest person. All i can be now is a person with glib tongue here and there. Well, there's still many ppl who treat me as a child. I guess i do still pass off that image but it's not because i want to stay young but simply because being old is just too tiring and there's too much resposnsibility to bear. If there was a way to maintain my youthfulness and face these challenge head on, den i'll just have to have a little more faith in GOD.

You know what does FIDES means. Apparently it means Faith/ Trust in Latin. During a retreat over the holidays, i took home with me two important lessons. First, was discernment and making the more loving decisions. Second, that first comes trust then comes love. The second is currently just a hypothesis. I really do hope that if i continue to believe in him, my answer will be answered.