Reflections

Do i look like i'm trying too hard? Well the truth really is this?

I'm insecure. I'm dodgy. I hate commitment. i hate my indecisiveness. I hate my hasty decision. I hate it that you're probably right and i'm probably wrong. I hate it that you seems smarter than i am. I hate knowingly that i have this urge to compare myself. To be some kind of an achiever. Honestly, what do i want in life?I honestly want a carefree life. I honestly want to learn things that i will actually remember and not like now. I have the memory and attention span of a gold fish.

And i honestly have nothing to show. Past acheivements are useless when you don't constantly keep up