alrite elearning week is finally over and i've managed do one ting, to screw my biological upside down, to thread in negativity for the longest time ever, to feel neglected, sad, and unable to find a person to talk to for the longest time. It's funny how when i'm just to has a conversation with someone other come straight and say that i'm flirting. Such irony, i've have you to know that i'm just looking for someone to talk to. You know it's really hard to find someone to talk to and not simply just small talk but also more serious matters.

I did some exercise and 11pm in the evening till 12 before, for that one hour all that i hope was that all this exercise i was doing would help me reach my goals. i took a shower and fiddled with my laptop till early morning and that's when i finally fell asleep after not feeling tired but rather emotionally a little happier or at ease. ok the next morning, i continued burning my copies of dvds and it was like already evening before i left the house for mass at holy family. I miss going for mass in the morning at st. theresa's . It's just so lonely having no one to greet, no one to say hi to, no one's hands to hold during the our father. It's just so weird. Well, going to mass is not really to fulfill an obligation but rather to spend time with god to find peace.

Anyway after mass, i walk to the east coast chalet for yx's surprise bday party. It was alrite i guess, well the crowd wasn't my type i guess. but hey we're there to celebrate yx's bday and that's wad impt. i had every intention of staying but as the night progress, i noticed there were just too few people i really clicked with and so i decided to go drinking with my kevin they all. It was fun eventhough i reached there really late. I being in the foul mood i have been in since dunno when didn't really how much i was drinking and just drank. But i guess, i drank a moderate barely enough to make you feel drowsy. But we did talk abit here, cracked some jokes at the expense of the other(yesh. Ant need to improve ur singing ar :P) and even did lame stuff like fortune telling using poker cards(yeah the one about what sequence you'll meet your best friend and lover) and (questions about 4 girls). It was quite fun, something we haven't done as a group before. We had quite a laugh. after that, i walked all the way to orchard boulevard before taking a cab home.

and here i am, supposed to do work but having neither the interest nor the heart to do the work and so i just did some menial stuff like printing and underlining. Oh how i wish i can feel blissful, contented, loved, and have good nite sleeps.