Why we keep trying?

The weekend has been a dreamy one, i practically passed it by in a half dream state. My brain wasn't really working, instead it was working at a pace where i would probably have made a senile person smarter. Oh well, cut me some slack, it's just one of my dull periods where i'm just feel like not doing a ting. Well it continued today as well, i print the exam papers(which is like the only productive thing i did) den i went for tutorials(okies maybe the next productive ting), third submit ibsm form slacked around in skool with ak for awhile before i decide to waste my afternoon away. Well like i said, i was restless and nonchalent and i was simply bring where the wind brought me.

I took 61 from skool to queensway, den i changed to 153 to go the interchange and den 851 and den 195 and i found myself at liang court eat yakitori before washing my hair under a running tap as i headed to Great World, bought tix for a movie, sat down at Coffee Bean. din know what to feel and then i was off to watch Casanova alone. Well it was a soso movie if i say so, it left so much undeveloped, leaving it to our own imagination and the plot was shallow other than simple plot twists which they blatantly revealed. And then i was home, want to cut my hair(guess i'll to cut it tmr). not many people knows this but i pretty much in pain and dilemma. Well i've always been. Just dat i am very good at hiding it. Everyone has flaws, everyone has expectations and everyone has dreams. Life is so hard already without having to live up to others expectations other than your own. But as you socialize and interact, you seem to get dragged in and assimilated and u find your having to face up to his/her expectations. It's not rite, i shouldn't have to do things that i don't want to. I shouldn't feel things i dun want to and i shouldn't feel lower than anyone else.

All i have to really say is, Never judge a book by its cover. An apple that looks good on the outside doesn't means that it is also good on the inside. N sometimes things that are ugly are actually the most beautiful. Well it's very contradictary doesn't it... but isn't life a contradiction in itself. Why do we keep trying? why don't we just stay the way we are? what is wrong with the way we are? what is wrong with the short, insecure greg? What's so great about being tall and confident? why do we want to change. i'll leave it to another day.

Next off, happy valentine day. Well i have no plans for today, no sweethearts, no darlings, no dinner planned out. It alrite, i chose this for myself... no need to feel sorry for me lol... i mean i'm not. Anyway, to all u couples out dere, kiss and make up and stay happy on this wonderful day, and to all those singles out dere( be it by choice or not), put on a smile for it's a day to celebrate love in numerous forms and not just BGR and even if u yearn it so, dun worry your time will come. And to all those couples who are not able to meet due to circumstances, may your everyday be like valentine's u dun a specific day to show that u care. I'm blabbering again.

Raphael Out