Honestly

I've been wanting blog for a long time and the reason i am only blogging now, i've read someone else's blog and her tots struck a chord with me.

I've been reaching a burnout recently, well not so much a physical burn out or a mental burnout but an emotional one. i feel like this is the breaking point already. First of all, i dun understand why everyone around just want to slack. If your goal is to get good grades, get As to push up ur GPA den the question i posing to you is this. WTF are you doing? Haven you heard you heard of " you rear what you sow". If you wish to get good grades, then please dun just say i need that A to push up my grades, pls put in some effort to. It may require you to make some sacrifices but it is worth at the end.

And seriously speaking, ur tots seem to be passing tots to me, because your actions and behaviours tell me a different story. We're not prepared for the prez and you don't come early and u cite bad weather? and traffic jam? oh come on man. Next, whether i try to get everyone to meet, you all say alrite and somehow this crops up and that crops up and we never got to meet even once. And the other group met 4 times. we barely even met once. I want to be friends with you all but if we dun get enuff time together to do so.

I've been doing so many projects over the past three years and this is the first time i have to say that i have to take the initiative for EVERYTHING and going through all the hassle to plan, to create a framework, you're not there. Haiz, the prez today in the morn was a disaster and irritation was written all over her face. I guess because of that we got marked down pretty badly. and Look at our presentation material, it practically reflects the people who do them, we start off nicely with pictures, and suddenly, there's nothing and there's nothing and at the end, there's something? what went wrong? It really reflect bad time management and lack of motivation. and Like i say again, if i dun get to see you how can i even try to motivate you.

I not done yet... Why issit that almost, ALMOST( there's are the exceptional few) every project i do, no one else seems to want to take initiative and leave it to me. I'm only human as well, leaving everything to me is simply wrong. I know you guys can do a good job as well. I've seen it with my own eyes. You have even sometimes surprised me with your great performances but why can't u all do that in group project. What made a good group project and good team is not one when everyone does their part but one that does more than just their part, offering help to the other members and injecting ideas etc etc.

What i write is nothing tot-provoking but rather a simple reminder that it takes two to clap.