Live to Love

Well, i had been rather down over the past weeks, doing project, feeling slack about not doing my tutorials, feeling shitty as if I was the only one doing sai kang for the project, and feeling really demoralised over my WISP presentation, feeling misunderstood and not many people cared enough for me and load load more of negative feeling before i actually reach the conclusion that I was making myself unhappy for a very simple. I would have loved for everything to have gone according to my plans. I would have just stopped here in i had blogged about it earlier because i was just not able to express my thoughts, but now i have a feel at the very least.

"There's gotta be more to life than chasing round every temporary high" words from the Stacie Orico's song. Life isn't about chasing after temporary highs but instead there is only truth. Life is about loving. Wow~!~!~ Greg is Sho smart. but i guess it is this simple truth that is hard to grasp.

We go through life to find love, to feel love and to make (others feel) love. it sounds simple but it isn't because to love is have Heart, to have the willingness, courage and determination to pursue love. Love for your family, your friends, your partners, the world at large, the things you do. This is what we call passion or ( to suffer). In order for us to feel love, to find love and to make love, we need to have passion. We must be willing to suffer. To feel miserable. To feel the sadness. To feel the lonely. To feel the rejections and dejections.

And it is only when we feel the negative feelings that we are able to feel the positive ones- happiness, joy, approval, companionship, acceptance. This is balance of the ying-yang, the black & the white. Many people are afraid to the negatvie side of life and the feelings that comes with it. But now i realise that it is important to feel this. to feel the volatility and difference for it is only when to start to feel this things that are we able to find love. Maybe love has always been there but we have never been able to feel it simply cos we are numb, indifferent, sitting on the fence and refusing to be hurt. But because you refuse to be hurt, you will never know the love and healing.

Anyway this is all still very conceptive and bits of thoughts here and there. If you can understand good for you. You can't i'm sorry because even i haven't been able to piece this puzzle of my life together yet. I'm working on it.. are you?