Lament

i guess it just the way i am.. Nv contented, always dreaming the impossible and always to get there and when there's not one to whom i dare to share this with. I end up lamenting here.

Regretting why i din study this little bit harder. Wishing i did, cos now i just waste my chance for an A for PMKT. what's left is just this glitter of hope and people will tell me this,"Aiyah, B+ /B oso good la" but i guess it's me, and i trying to be a perfectionist?, maybe. Am i trying to reach the destination that is still so blur to me.

Well i'm saying this because i just finished my Marketing paper. I have to say Lloyd takes a lot of abuse for no apparent reason. He always say that he's not gonna do well and dunno wad shit wad else and in the end he does well. and today Khay Wai just finished the paper like god damn easy and i was like okies dun panic, dun be anxious just keep going. Stay the course and you'll be fine. Yeah i completed the paper on the dot, not having the time to check, and forgot to write the date and question i attempted. seriously hope i dun get penalized now, and then people say i write a lot but that's just not true if u ask me, when i scribble it's just crazy. Each time i going into the paper half hearted, i feel so half hearted when i come out too.

Right after there was no one to talk to, i retracted back to be a loner. On the bus,i was thinking to myself, how screwed up the paper was, screwing up question one. leaving out one variable. i mean i could have just listed it den the segmentation oso never explain properly haiz. then the other question cannot make it
10 marks two points to write and my answer is barely past 5/8 of the page how to get the full marks. Yeah sorrie, i'm not lloyd, i write like mad to get the same amount of marks as he does. Aiya.. i guess there's not point crying over spilled milk and it time to move on other things. And then i was there at subway harbourfront with a view of the harbour(i mean the sea lar). and i was like dreaming, haiz when will i be able to sit at the beach and just enjoy the quiet moment, watching the tide rise and fall. and then i was back to reality again, remembering how the beach we will be crowded with volleyballer, kids playing sandcastle and making a ton of noise and having fun. I might be getting old before i actually had fun, wishing to have time already and so a tender age.. Haiz...

i tink i've lamented enuff... feel much better alreadi, think i'll go shoot time crisis a little and go meet my pals... Study hard peeps and thank you for the sms. You know who u are :)