Slowing Down

Okies, it's been a long time since i last posted an entry on my own blog. Well, i wasn't all that busy lar, but just have to say that i was felt like a changed person at one stage. Den a while later, frustration kicked in, then bitterness. But somehow, i guess the onli things that was keeping me from a complete emotional collapse was must be the movies.

Sitting in a quiet cinema, without any disturbance and for the whole duration of the movie, i would be able to forget about all my problems, insecurities and inabilities. And just look at what is happening in the life of others. And the thing about movies is that even if it's based on a true story, the story may not be completely real. But it feels so real. I can feel the sadness, happiness, pain and insecurity and it feel so bearable unlike my own. Probably because they're not my emotions but others. And it make it less stressful knowing because it's other emotions, you do not have the power to change it.

You know, i really dun understand what people rushing for. Spending time in a movie, they find it too slow, and i think to myself, no i enjoyed it. It was great, just nice. I probably have aged a lot. No longer as panicky as i used to be, now what is replaced is what i call some little better planning and the other a little more understanding that some things will just not go ur way whether u like it or not. Well i just went for a wine appreciation talk, which i tried to convince some others to tag along but i guess they're just not interested and not point forcing. But i really enjoyed myself. The wine tasting was just great and the ambience was good too. It was a really good place to chill out. So near the city yet so out of the way.

Okies i tink i'll stop here, i'm probably continue to babble in circles if i continue about how i have decide to stop wishing for tings to happen and either go out and do things or just if it happen, it happens. Ciaoz
Until next time