Sunday, August 19, 2007

Haha... Long Time since i've last update my blog... a very long i must say. But guess it can't be helped since i'm officially a chao recruit. and every time i book out, time seemed to have simply fast forwarded. friends are having exam in poly, others are working, and other are already a few week through uni. and all i have to share is the times inside that doesn't seem to be relevant to the world we live in.

Yesh... I made a great number of new friends, learnt a great number of things and experience loads of stuff that i would never though i would to endure. the deprivation of rest, the multitudes of emotions, the suffering, and the struggle to maintain a clarity of mind. And how many times i feel being swept around, following instruction not because they are right but because the result in less talk and more action. And every time i'm out, i can only hope that for a flicker of a second i do not need to worry about ippt, soc, SIT test, peer appraisals, getting in OCS or things liddat that everything will work out just fine. But soon enuff it still catches up to u. You'll be booking back in, all the problem will still be there.

Can i really say i know what i doing? I really dun know? i dunno why i made the painful decisions i made? i dun remember why is it so impt that i fight to enter command school? i dun remember why is it so impt that i should stay single? i dun remember why issit impt to endure, to strive and to excel? I try to forget that people think that i'm short(it's a fact no denial needed) but can i. Can my every action be motivate by the disgust that there are people who despise you or issit motivated by purer desires of self improvement and growth?

You may think i tink too much but i tell you truthfully this is the best proof that i still alive and kicking.