Damn it lar... today has been one freaking bad day... quarrelled with my mum the whole morning, den bstat test got so many f up mistakes... Reached home at 8, whole family went for mass, i was at home watching POT. Somehow this is one of the comforting moments i have today. The moon is so beautiful, so bright and so full and yet her beautiful still unable to bring happiness to my even lonely heart. How i wish my parents understand me more.

Disorganized Thoughts

My Thoughts

What i write here is my thoughts, they have not been organized in anyway so here goes

Saturday, woke up, no one was at home, my arms were feeling cold and sore. i went to Tiong to eat brunch, walked around for a while before msging anthony. I indirectly asked him whether he wanted to go for mass. He said he wanted to study but his gal was bugging him to go out cos he had been ignoring her to study for promos which is like dunno how many % true( the study part). So he was going to watch a movie wid her. After loitering for close to a hour, i mean like tiong ain't that big, i took a bus to People's Park, from dere, i took a bus to bedok, den finally to tampines. i was contemplating on which church to go. QoP, OLPS?, Holy Fam? or Holy Trinity. So i ended up going to holy trinity. Dunno what wrong but all these alone, just strings of thought kept going through my head. the bus journey, the walk to the church, the walk around the shopping centre, during mass. After mass, take the train down to city, and took a bus back home

Sunday, went for mass again, cantor the prayer of the faithful, christopher was 10 mins late for mass. He came with a new 7610, and apparently he traded it free. After mass, went around the funfair for a while, discovered SJI sec 4 were having their retreat. And smart ppl, din listen to the priest and used the lift and got stuck. How smart. Anywae, i went home to have my nap. i ate my lunch, went back to church for choir practice, and great i was the onli GUY dere, all the rest were gals, but okies lar, del, sheena and lisa were sitting beside not as sian as sitting with the aunties. Den i went down to orchard met kevin, gareth, alex to buy ZiXin present, den we met Zixin. Meng was late again( nothing new), had dinner at swensons, Alex left before dinner, we were laughing throughout the whole occasion of celebrating ZiXin Bday. after Dinner, we went to play arcade again, saw ppl playing tc3, hands were a little itchy so i went to play as well. Sadly i died at the third stage. Forgot the fastest way to kill the people liao. we played until 930 den went down to mos for a light snack, and were laughing like crazy again lar. at 1030, we left. no back home. I bought the Prince & Me DVD, gonna watch later. Quite Expensive, but what to do sucker for love story with happy endings which never seemed to happen in real life.

a time of exercise and reflection

Today, played badminton for close to 2hrs... So i was pretty much exhausted... Furthermore, i slept at 2 the day before... the last Lesson of LMS, really gonna miss the lessons but definitely not the project. Aniwae, we each wrote a letter, about what will happen in 5 yrs time. i wrote my 7 yrs from now. Some of the goals, i have written down i think are quite realistic and fulfillabe. yet i think in order for them to come true , i must change. But is this change for better or for worst. Haiz..

And i just read the question for the PBL2 student reflection and somehow, the thing i can think off are quite negative. I think my group members will get what i mean. Somehow, our arrangement for a new group leader didn't seemed to have changed. But what's done is done, all we can do is remember the mistakes we have committed and avoid them happening again.

Avoidance

Sian it's early morning now, just finished reading quite a few ppl blog. Dunno lar, somehow i feeling i avoiding a certain subject. Because i'm avoiding this subject or making vague comments when they talk about this kind of topic. If u see me giving me u this nervous smile or laughter. There's two meaning, i'm not really interested in answering the questions.

The Weird Day

Today i somehow reached school 30 mins earlier. Earliest in my class. Den i was still quite sleepy and decided to walk around the whole lvl 4 to try and wake myself up. Soon the Micro tutorial began and most of my group members din sleep yesterday nite, what to do rush project. I mean like it's not good to do everything at the last minutes. We were so bloody unprepared of our presentation, it wasn't hard to know why, i mean like come on the format i set, ppl can misinterpret "Reasons for action taken" is talking about the why we chose this problem as the most probable cause. Aniwae, fortunately, it turn out to be rather okay although i believed the information we have given was really adequate.

Den i dunno what you doing oso. I know that we all wanna slack liao, so many bloodi projects... when will they ever stop... In a few more weeks ,just perservere, in a few weeks, the hols will come. I mean like since we have chosen to come to a polytechnic u must realise that we decide to become adult despite the fact that we are still rather immature. Most of us could have easily gone to a JC and complete our extra two yrs of Upper Secondary and move on the Uni, but since we have chosen this path, we should do put in all the extra effort and complete our diploma.

Sorry to Wanni's group, i know i made han Tine Quite pissed.

Something happened today as well, was in the library, watching VCD i brought from and i kena booked for dat. I mean come on i was using headphones in one corner, trying to relax before a presentation and you book me.

After school, i went jogging, For half an hour den did some push up sit up and squats... Feel so refreshed. Going to study for Micro Test tomolo.

Weekend

Friday Nite, met at 7 plus to have dinner at macs with Gareth, Kevin , Ant ,Randall, Zi Xin. Den Haikal came. After Dinner, we went to play pool at paradiz centre, it was quite packed, so we had to settle for 8ft tables, we opened two table. Kevin was alone playing arcade at PS. Later, Kevin, Henry, alexander arrived to play pool with us. Ant left about 10. Den me randall, and kal played "Save Your Balls", it's basically sinking the others' balls while try to prevent your balls from being sank. It was really funny eventhough i lost all three rounds of it. The table beside us, i noticed that this quite pretty lady teaching most prob his bf how to play pool.( so rare dun u tink so) We played photo hunt after pool, den went to rochor for Beancurd, I kept thinking that there was six ppl and order an extra daohui and soyabean milk. in the end i finish the extra beancurd but the other cup of soyabean milk was too much. it was bout 12 plus alreadi. We made our way back to kevin place. Henry ran after his bus and caught up to it lucky for him. At kevin's house, me, alex and meng played Monopoly, super funny, meng kept going to community chest and chance. In the end i won with the most money. Imagine 4 guys playing monopoly in the wee hours of a saturday morning, so lame rite.. I took back the CDs i lent kevin and borrowed his she diao ying xiao juan...

Saturday woke up, watched Yugioh, after watching it, discovered that i was actually feeling quite cold, so i wore a long sleeve tee shirt den my windbreaker. After that had brunch, played DOTA with meng online, den went downstairs to meet meng. After that went up to his place to slack before leaving at 4 to meet anthony for mass. We met around 530 and made our way to Sacred Heart Church for mass. Super Funny, he was impressed with the interior of the church, den i told him "WAIT till you see the choir" and he kept laughing when he heard the choir, lolz... After mass, we went to ps to have dinner at MOS. I wanted to buy a Fila Polo Tee but den discovered it was like $60, roadkill man, it's fila onli lor. So in the end i din buy, den went to MJ to get headphones, after that we went home.

Shrapnel of Memories

today is SUCH a good day, got up damn early, went to skool for fucking CIP lecture, after lecture went for OCOM tutorial. it started at 10 but we were dere at 9 plus... so the rest of the class came and denise and wee hoon were quite Loud, i was trying to find my peace and quiet but it seemed impossible, on the bus today, oso got some aunt dunno what's her problem talking in hokkien damn bloodi loudly until i couldn't get my nap. I was quite pissed alreadi...

tutorial began and i was enjoying myself as learning how other ppl talk about life, some in general way, some in a specific way. Anyway after that, we discussed on what topic to do for GP. Den andrew thought of doing uniform groups and i was like FUCK YOU... i hate NCC becos of my juniors and of some assholes at HQ NCC and you want me to recall all the crap i've been true. I have to say some of them were impt but it's wanting me to recall all the shards of sorrow and suffering. And best part, they wanted to wear our uniform. A person who take pride in my uniform will take a few day just to prepare my uniform there is no way i was going to do it.

LoVe

haiz... feeling quite good now... Just finish watching some love story with a happy end.. Dunno why after watching a good love story, it always leave me thinking that life may actually be worth looking forward to as you never know when you'll meet the one that you'll spend your life with. But it also make you wonder will your life be as eventful as these dramas..

doing my suppose to be inspirational Speech on Choice, now it's some what less den engaging... Sian.... Ciaoz..

The Good Old Classics

Watching Chinese martial Arts drama with all those fighting and love stories in between and suddenly, felt like singing the song I Love You... Very weird sia.. Oh here the lyrics


I Love You

I love you

for sentimental reasons,

I hope you do believe me,

I've given you my heart

I love you

and you alone were meant for me

please give your loving heart to me

and say we'll never part

I think of you every morning

Dream of you every night

Darling I'm never lonely

whenever you are in sight

I love you

for sentimental reasons

I hope you do believe me

I've given you my heart

I love you for sentimental reasons

I hope you do believe me

I've given you my heart.

yesterday, was suppose to meet the gang at 7 at Somerset but in the end all of us were late. when i reach the bus-stop i ran all the way to cine to discover that kevin and henry was at Centrepoint. So i ran to Centre Point to meet, they were in some backpack shop so we look at the good and den went to Emerald to eat dinner. As you all know at dinner time, it's QUITE hard to find seat to eat. We spotted these two aunties having dessert and we tot that they would vacate after they finish so we loitered around that area. While we were waiting for them to vacate, we watched Tom & Jerry on the TV... LOl... they quite inconsiderate lor, we were waiting for them to vacate and u know what they did after finishing dessert, they took out some photos to look.. oh wells.. the ladies on the adjacent table somehow vacated their seat first so we sat down and went to buy food. Soon Alex & meng arrived. we made our way to cine cos we were suppose to go bowling but somehow no one informed us that the bowling alley had ceased operation since 1st Aug. So we left cine to go play lan. Ant meet us at Orchard Shopping Centre but somehow his sense of direction quite bad.. He said he was at Heeren that side.. Outside Seven Eleven and we were like where the hell is dat... Played 2 hrs of LAN den pool den we went home

Saturday quite lame. i woke up quite late cos i spent the nite watching Yi Tian Tu Long Ji. I woke up at 10 just in time to watch YuGiOh but i discovered the house was empty, my parent had went to Sentosa den my sis dunno go where... So i had a very light breakfast, watched cartoon, and went to tiong bahru plaza, i wanted to watch the terminal but somehow i ended up window shopping.. bought a comic den took a bus down to AMK. Was SUPPOSED to go to mass at Christ the King with Anthony but he got grounded and nv informed me until the mass ended.. And quite weird, imagine my parent grounding me even if i was going for mass... the chances man... ok the mass was okies.

Today had badminton, quite sad ar lost 11-4 11-0 to CLara ( not the TB03 one). At first wasn't that bad lar, cos we were playing for fun onli, den keep service over. But den Mr Tan came, and suddenly, the fella who lacks self confidence (me) and a fella who can plays better with a little pressure so Quite sad ar, 11- love my gosh lor. Super Sad. Anyway after that went for LMS, okies lar, just discover our project got a lot of things need to add. Den we did the ABCD personality test, but teach say it's the same as DISC and i suddenly discover the whole group down there all got IS and SI. Omg last time in SJI 406 onli like got 5 liddat onli, but suddenly 90% of the class.Going to bowl now

Ultra Dao Mode

Argh Damn Crap Today. Ok It's going to sound contradicting. Wanted to have someone whom i could talk to to talk do, at the same time din feel like talking to anyone. haiz.. body not feeling rite.. not in a rite state of mind and dunno what the hell i doing with my life. All my friends seem to have their futures planned out but me? dun say plan I still trying to find out bout who i am. i dun have the slightest idea what i'm going to do. The thoughts that i am having don't seem so unfamiliar, sometime, somewhere i have thought of them before. A dejarvu? Quite Unlikely.

Starting Living Life

Ever Felt Like Your Life could be better Den it is now..

Ever Felt that U should have done better for this test..

Ever Felt that U should have said something instead of doing something...

Ever Felt that u should have done this and that..

Everytime i think of it, i could done better than i am doing now.. I could have be someone better than i am now.. I could have be in some place better than i am now...
Well after yesterday's talk and today i watched a movie Cinderella's Story i think so.. I do know that things that happen in movie aren't real but the truth is that the morale of the story are true.. Dreams Are not Impossible... If u dare to dream.. Dare to work for towards your dreams.. Greg has made a choice to make his life better... I hope it does become better...

Friday's Expedition

Friday after skool, i went home,wasn't feeling very well. I called Meng asked him whether we were going out tonite. Den he say he was going cycling. Den i thought to myself, " we haven't cycled together for quite a while already". So i just at the idea and i reach home, had lunch and den went cycling. We cycled towards Bedok but somehow we missed a turn at beach Road and ended up in balestier. So we went to meet his friend Zero, den made our way down from Serangoon ( Zero's Place) to Hougang den Tampines Den Pasir Ris to meet meng's other friend Ines. The journey doesn't end, we cycled to loyang den changi village den cycled 10km towards east coast park. From Dere, we cycled to the Indoor Stadium, den to the esplanade, boat quay , chinatown and cantonment, bukit merah and den our place. Total time taken 5 hrs. Freaking tired, butt is painful and feeling really unwell.

To a Net Pal

Ten Things I miss about a Net Pal.


I miss the way you greet

I miss the way you reply my message

I miss the chats we had together

I miss the way we forgot about time when we chatted

I miss the chances i got to talk crap with ya

I miss the times i shared things with you that most others don't

I miss the times when we logged off only the other has logged off

I miss the times when we could talk about anything under the sun

I miss the way you said goodbye

What I miss most of all is the fact i know that i do not miss the times i am not chatting with ya.


Got it off from dunno who... Suppose to be inspired by 10 things i hate about u.

A Day Of Reflection

Today Got up quite late Even though i slept quite early yesterday.. But was too tired, Yesterday went jogging with sis for a whole hour.. None stop my shirt was completely drench in prespirations. I got up printed notes for today's lecture and was contemplating of taking a cab down to SJI to see my teachers but den i was dunno what got over me and i decided to just go to Ngee Ann.

On the way to school, i sent messages to Mr Ang and J.T over the phone. Den i was listening to the News Radion 938. They were having this special on teachers. Suddenly, i felt very sad. Might be due to the fact that i regretted not going back to see the teachers, receiving their replys or mayb the Special on 938. Haiz.. What to do

went for Bstats lecture, at around 1215 den the class officially begin with people still strolling in. The LT was like onli 1/2 filled compared to the usual 2/3. Quite easy to understand lar. But must revise again. Den went to eat lunch at Canteen 4. After lunch, went to do OB tutorial outside LT 45 den went for 1/2 of the "Motivation" lecture den chao. Went to have my picture taken for Ambassadors.. Aiya since selected liao.. Might as well enter for the experience rite.

Den took a bus down to Dover to meet Randall and went to Dhoby Ghout. Met Kevin they all for a while den went for 6B Class Gathering. At the start it was quite fun lar. But quite a few of them left so we din really get the chance to really talk except what i call lame around. At around 9+ i left to meet kevin, meng and Henry. It's so funny, they were in the Atrium Arcade playing the lamest game possible, you know the scoop up candy game. People around us would think we were childish, but it was fun. It was way better than the pool before that, a queer feeling which i can't seem to explain, eventhough there was music and chatting.

After they have sort of lamed, we went to Meridien to play pool and to think i just played dere. We played on a 8-ft for about 1hr plus. Damn Funny, cos meng keep doing lame stuff. I said, "unless meng gave me a foul.. Quite hard for me to win ar" and guess wad? he Fouled. And after that the next few game, meng accidentally shot in the black ball once i tink. and Sort of gave us handicap for the rest of the games.

Got home, going to bath and sleep liao.. Tomolo still got school, Haiz So sianz. OB, Bstat and Micro Haiz.. Den Thursday still got dunno wad lame thing.. Think CIP onli leh