Dot

A dot, what does a "." represent? To me, something this simple as a poke of the pen on a piece of paper can be associated something enlightening(to me at least) the dot is a way of life, "to get straight to the point" and not "beat around the bush". Something that seems so simple but is so hard to do and sometimes the communication simply breaks down for stupid reasons and the message that you actually get across is completely different from what you intended to say.

And it sounds very silly when i say this but we all don't like to be bogged down by tons and tons of details and yet we're always scavenging for more and more information. Sounds really contradicting if you ask me but the answer to the keyword here is knowledge(not simply data or processed information but information that has value to you and makes life easier for us in decision making and congnition.)

And worst when you getting straight to the point is not easy when things are not in absolute terms. How's many things in this world can be expressed in a simple yes&no, love/hate, black&opposite or what you people like to call the opposites. Cos seriously saying can feelings, emotions, judgements, perceptions be that well defined by a simple good or bad. U won't have realised each time a person express his love, interest, displeasures, it's always different from another's and can you described a person who's not pretty to the extent of down dead gorgeous but not ugly to the extent of ugly betty as "Pretty Ugly", hell no, it's outrageous and u're seriously mistaken if you tink that that's a in btw state of pretty and ugly. Can you say it outright that that girl is pretty/ugly? well, actually it does boils own to that and only that. Cos thought does not always translate into actions but actions always carries with it a certain amount of thought(whether it is conscious or unconscious), the anticipation of cause and effect and other unforeseeable spill over effects.

But getting straight the points. also means that people need to be able understand the other half of things whereby what is not said has more impact what is said. For simple analogy sake, i don't hate you and i don't not like you? Translation: I like/love you.

A dot also simply means a full stop. The end of a sentence, a paragraph, a chapter. But it doesn't. So it signifies death, the end of things,end of the line, end of life's rich story. But how few people realised that on the other side of the full stop is an new beginning. The starting of a new sentence, phrase, chapter, the beginning of a story, a new phase. and thus it also symbolize rebirth, renewal and the continuity of a cycle.

Can you imagine all this rabbling on and on because of my affinity with a dot. It's ridiculous to be able to reason so much. It's almost insane but strangely enough this is personal and truthful. It's not bullshit. How many times can i truthfully and ernestly tell me that i'm not bullshitting him/her. The occassions seem to be fading in comparison with bullshit.

That aside, I'll like to express my heartfelt thanks to all of you out there who remember my birthday and/or went the extra mile to celebrate it with me.

Thanks 538 for the lovely dinner, cake, bag and notes.
Thanks Kevin, Ant, Keith, Alex, Henry, Meng for being such great pals and of cos the lame moments, the booze, the LANing, arcade, movies, dinner and the presents
Thanks Celine for making a special appearance at the party.
Thanks to all you out there who msged me, you peeps make my days

What's left is probably just the birthday wishes :)

And fret not that if u din wish me for i had moments where i had remembered their bday's but didn't wish them cos of really dumb reasons looking back now.

No Longer A Teen, No Yet A Man

Well... it's been a while since my last post and a lot has happened. Well there was the exams,registration for university, then going back to school to do mr after the exams,ambassadors retreat camp, class chalet, passing my basic theory, henry's commissioning parade, final semester results and my fervent hunt for my fossil watch and countless movies i've watched to make me realise that i'm come to another crossroad, and so say as a door is closing, another is opening. And since i'm old now, i guess i can take the time to slowly write the last few thoughts of my teenage adolesences.

Exams had always been a nagging pain in the ass cos of the hours spent being couped up in the library having no one to talk to or forcing myself to not talk to everyone and just trying to force every sentence, every point into the brain with whatever method, acronymss, mind maps, copying and mugging. going through past year papers and when i look back, i will remember this being the time and effort = results.

Ah, straight after the examination, we quickly realised that we only have a few days left to register for uni and so we all rushed to prepare our documents and i realise at the very moment of registration, the question is back what do you really want to do with your life. You really think that business is for u? but then i guess i've come to like business, the thrill and adrenaline rush of deadlines and presentation and the insurmountable amount of work.

den there's mr that never seems to end cos we keep doing and doing and doing during holiday periods. so glad it's finally over. So after that was class chalet, it started out bland and boring cos there was onli the guys dere and a few of alf friends and we played mahjong, den it got lamed cos gerard came, and it got boring when everyone left except me, clement, alf and his friend, and then morning, in the afternoon more people came and in the evening it got lively when the rest of the class came, we took photos, played mahjong drank redbull vodka.

Oh i missed retreat camp, the turn out kinda blowed cos there was just so few year 3 ambs there and i din really got to take pic with all of them. but i guess it was still good. So gonna them, the all so beautiful angeline, cheerful serene teo, auntie shu ann who happens to be my leader, auntie lisa, idol TeoXu,deep voice Josh, keith, chris, neng hao, zhi kai, ven, wen fang, terence, zaid, jonathan, eugenie, amanda, jun wei and the many many more.

The next big event was Henry's commissioning parade, it's just so grand, the ceremony, so perfect and so up to standard. You just feel the prestige and grandeur in the event. All their work has not been waste. We took only one foto but it's so ironic in a way cos we had one taken in sec 4 when we're all in uniform except him and now it's the opposite. what a way to remind us of our friendship. and what a way to remind us of the path we must strive for. Officer or Man( wahahah).

ok now onto results. My results are good, very good to be exact but i felt shortchanged of my mcom A but oh well, goes to show how much details and efforts we have to put in for mcom so congrats to rebs for getting the Ad for MCOM. cos we did proj together therefore u can tell that the deciding factor was the exam and u've aced it congrats. with that i grad with 3.7313 good enuff for com but nothing else i guess. lol. Guess there no point praying for some book prize or some medals that is not in sight what so ever. It's time to move on

Okies, must watch movies on my list now is the history boys trust me it's damn good and 300. u wanna know the meaning of idealism. watch both.

I went out yesterday for a birthday celebration with 538 and i got a really nice bag from them. Thanks a million for it. It was great meeting up with ya all.

Okay finally down to today, i spent half the day dreaming at home watching tv and watching anime and then i left home for town pretty aimlessly. I ended up walking the entire ps, playing the arcade, walking to meridien, to orchard point and back to plaza singapura and not being able to decide which watch to buy den i met up with my sis and we just walked some more. and some more. then she left for home, while i remain there to contemplate about what i've been doing. I'm been wasting my time, going about in circle and without any results( unless u consider the exercising from walking and running). and so in the end despite the many choices i tot i had, i ended buying a fossil watch from watch house in harbourfront. yeah and i initially noted one puma and another fossil. So hopefully in a few days' time, i'll be able to map out my plans and stop being so aimless and wasting time and effort liddat...

With this, thank you all for remembering my bday. Love ya all(not in a gay way). ciaoz