How Deep is this rabbit hole

Today's quite crappy, feels like i in wonderland( happy?) not really... I'm wondering how deep this rabbit hole is.

This morning woke up at 715, lazed around for 5 mins den i went to the bathroom. Turn on the shower and was getting ready for the shock from the cold water but somehow the water din have that effect on me. Den i switched on the heater. It was quite warm after bout 30 second and so i decided to switch it off. But den i get too cold so i switched it on again.. quite lame lar. But just can't seem to find the optimal temp to bath in.I got out changed and got ready for skool.

reach the bus-stop saw 61 zoom pass my face,wad to do, just have to wait for the next bus about 10-15 mins... Soon the bus arrived, i found a seat and went straight to sleep, opening every few stops to see where i was.. One moment there was this quite good looking gal beside me and den there was a man in business wear. After bout 45 mins i reached school, was like in a trance. I just walked to the 4th floor of 72 and got ready for class to start. Miss V finish marking the micro test already. Got 85.5 with like 6-7 worth of careless mistakes..grrrrr..

had lunch and here i am outside the classroom 1 hr early... feeling quite sian.. my mind is not here in school.. Feel like going back to the times in sji... Haiz... Tomolo is teacher's day, I feel like going back a little lazy plus dere is lecture in the afternoon so sian. Bstats and OB. I freaking hate OB it's like Social Studies but it's freaking boring and i have a project due next week..

When is this journey of mine going to end.. Think i already know the answer.. The day i leave to met God in heaven is the day this journey will end. Life is full of joys and sorrows... haiz... I will continue O my God to do my actions for the love of you

Routine Sunday

Was very sleepy dis morning, cos i slept very late the night before, reading Charlie's Chocolate Factory( haha reliving my childhood). As i was saying woke up at 811am, stoned in the shower for a while den went to church for mass. The church bells rang when i was still at home, so had to rush down. Reached church, they were singing the entrance hymn liao, So i just joined in for the last verse and chorus.

all of us were quite sian except for Vernon, dunno what's his prob, we alreadi doing harmony and he still want to do in an octave higher.. leave it to the man who doesn't act his age to do such a ting. After mass, had a short practice, all the sec 4 were sort of studying for the Prelims, can't believe a year has almost passed. I came home, watched cartoon, the episode of POT i have watched too many times. So was watching The Guess show and AstroBoy, Teen Titan, a little bit of Power Ranger wild force. Den went to take a nap. until 1245. But wasn't really sleeping cos my sis was listening to Robbie Williams

Went to aunt home, ate lunch, stayed there for a while, den went to home. Reach home, i watched a little TV den went jogging, man i just discovered my pace is freaking fast but it's too hard to control.

Ant's Bday.My Lonely Saturdays

Friday was Anthony's Bday, we had dinner at MOS Burger, den went to Istana Park to cut the cake we bought for him. It's quite funny, cos swensen's dun supply knife, we had to go buy one from Carrefour. So we sang bday song catch the cake, ate the cake. There was one piece left. Randall and kevin spilt it and smashed it into ant's face. Seak aiming wrong and the cake ended up in Ant's mouth. Den randall came in for the second wave. Den Randall was like , " let's rape Him, one hold his leg, one hold his arms" But in the end, we all just sat dere and watched randall try to get us to rape anthony.

After that we went to play DOTA, think anthony quite sad, he lost both games. Den after that we went to pool, he also lost the game he played. If i was him, i would have felt really sad, even on my birthday i still lose to other. But then it's just me. reached home bout 12, watch Prince Of Tennis 126 127. It's nice but too lame, Menai Swing and Serve what the hell

Saturday, "woke up" at 834 am, went to piss, cos cartoon dun start until 9, i went back to sleep, " woke up" 930,went back to sleep again. this repeated quite a few times, In the end i woke up at 11am. Watch Gundam Seed at 1130. Den read the newspaper, ate Lunch, went to Tiong Bahru to watch Bourne Identity alone. It's a really nice show. Den walked to Great World for fun. When i reach great world, i was contemplating which church to visit today. At the bus stop, i wait for the next bus that comes. It was 65 and i was tinking just went to St. Michael's Last week. Den 14 came, so i thought , " hmm.. Tampines.. Let's go to Holy Trinity" So i boarded the bus and took a really long bus journey. at 545 i wasn't even reaching Holy Family yet. So not choice decided to go to Holy family instead so as not to miss mass.
Reach Holy Family just in time. Shaun Sim sang the psalm and gospel acclamation den dun chao where.. the homily was about humility.

after mass, took a bus to Bedok den took the MRT down to City Hall. Damn Ex leh 114cents the MRT ride. From City Hall i took a bus home. Ordered Chicken Cutlet but somehow the lady heard it as Fish And Chips. Not complaining i just ate. Then i went

I've made a Choice

Yesterday, after Micro C.T, i went to P.S. to meet Kevin and Alex to buy present for Anthony. His Bday today. Then i remembered the conversations i had wid Anthony and then with Kevin. Anthony was talking about how he might had made a bad choice of going SA. He was saying that as a large porportion of the air guys went to poly or what we call the more happening bunch, who slacked a lot but did rather well for O's 10,11,12,14. Okies with these points u could go to a quite a good jc. But we went to poly. I told him that we all made a choice and what we can do now is just perservered

Then the other day, Kevin and I were thinking whether we had made a wrong choice going to poly. My grades in poly aint too bad. But Kevin was saying he was getting quite a lot of Cs at the moment. I told him this, if we were in JC, we won't be playing mahjong at your house, we would be study like crazy at your house. So have we made a wrong choice going to poly? looking back at it we were only pragmatic and nothing more. We went to poly because we weren't sure we can do well for A's. We wanted a diploma to fall back on. Furthermore, diploma holders were more employable as we had work experience. None of us is going to stop at a diploma, I for one will try for Master's. All I can say is i've made a choice and i have perserver.

A Dream ?? Where there was Building there is a hill ???.................... Nah Just the camera playing a trick on u  

Is Life Simple or Is It Complicated

Just thought this paradox. Life is Simple yet Complicated. So which one is it.

Why is it Simple, all you need to do is to reach the end of your life. It doesn't matter how you get there, all you need to do is to go on the journey of life.

Why is it Complicated, there is no one diffinite way to reach the end.

Tests

Yesterday, slacked the whole morning, den i left for skool at around 1230..when i reached school i saw Mark.. was chatting wid him... Toking how the unity of our classes cannot even be compared to the class unity we had in SJI. Eg. When some fella in our level has a crush on a certain gal from XYZ school, by the end of the week 3/4 of the lvl will know. Mayb i shouldn't use will know, i should say knows because they want to know. Why? we cared for the fella mar lolz.... Haiz But those days that we have gone through are over, we may never experience that again. But take heart as there are still josephians experiencing this as we speak...

After that, i studied for Bstats, Meet my class girls at Canteen 1. They all seemed so much more prepared except for Regina cos she sorta mistaken Micro for Bstats. I went in feeling freaking nervous. I found a seats and said a prayer. And soon the paper began, the theory part was quite tough, i circled three questions, did the rest and moved on to calculations. so i was freaking stressed calculating the results but lucky, all my calculation are the same as one of the options so just choose that one. Finished the paper with 10 mins left and 3 q to do.. In the end, i left the hall feeling happy cos i cld do quite well, but most prob not full marks( sorrie i hoping for Full Marks a little ambituous).

Chiong to guitar after C.T... was eavesdropping on some gals toking bout going to CJC.. They were cursing quite a few of the ppl who had 10 pts and stayed on. Little do they know 1/3 of the SJI class of 2003(120 ppl) is in CJC. So many of my fews had like 12 and below. Many of them even appealed back to CJ. Dunno why i saying this but i think is because i might had been one of them. reached guitar 5 mins late but Djasli was couching a man in the other room. So i was learning Torn with BK and Randall on our own first. Djasli made me do 5mins worth of barre Chords qutie killer, not for me but randall. After that we learn to do the solo part. After that, walked home with singing the songs in my head. Reach home at 8pm. Bathed watched TV, watch the repeat telecast of the rally, read newspaper, watched armageddon, watched Gladiator, den went to sleep.

Feel Like Working Hard but Dunno why I slacking

This week sux man... I feel like working hard, but dunno why i'm slacking now. Always telling myself i'll accomplished this and that today. But the next day, i'll be waking up at dunno wad time ( 9-11 pick anything in between). Den i'll onli sort of study in the afternoon which means that i actually covered exceptionally little work. Where has the all my determination and willpower gone to... Ah~!~!~!~!~!~!

Ora Et Labora

Argh~!~!~! I'm SO slack i can't stand it... after hearing LHL's Speech.. it aroused so many emotions... To work harder, to not disappoint ppl who believe in me and to not disappoint myself.. So i woke up exceptionally this morning 6+. Showered and started my studying. But somehow, i lost steam after reading just two chapters of the 5 that i need to cover. I shutted my eyes and was going over what i have read in my mind. And suddenly all the other thoughts in my head started to flood my mind. the next thing i knew i was so of sleeping. I woke up about 30mins later, having sort of a headache, must have thought too much during my sleep( i dun think they can be considered dreams) So continued to study, now completed chap 4 but somehow when i look at the questions, i do not know what to sub in( and to think i have 2 A1 in maths... how ironic not knowing what to sub in for bStats.)

Studying somehow always reminds me of SJI, the time i had there...Whenever you wanted to get down to studies, if u felt distracted there would always be a pal/ teach beside you encouraging you to push him... Now what is left are memories of the days gone..

I will continue O my god to do my actions for the Love of You...

What u looking at? wanna fight? nah.. i too lazy oso... Hmmzzz.. My skin around my eyes look pink i wonder why...  

This bear. it's just a bear dressed in a white shirt and short, wearing a green and white stripped tie with a tiny school badge. Or is it? 

Reach

Reach by Gloria Estefan

Some dreams
live on in time forever
those dreams,
you want with all your heart
and i'll do whatever it takes
follow through with the promise i made
put it all on the line
what i hoped for at last would be mine

if i could reach, higher
just for one moment touch the sky
from that one moment in my life
i'm gonna be stronger
know that i've tried my very best
i'd put my spirit to the test
if i could reach

some days
are meant to be remembered
those days
we rise above the stars
so i'll go the distance this time
seeing more the higher i climb
that the more i believe
all the more that this dream will be mine

if i could reach, higher
just for one moment touch the sky
from that one moment in my life
i'm gonna be stronger
knowing that i've tried my very best
i'd put my spirit to the test
if i could reach
if i could reach, higher
just for one moment touch the sky
that one moment in my life
i'm gonna be stronger
i'm gonna be so much stronger
yes i am
i put my spirit to the test
if i could reach,
if i could, if i could
if i could reach
reach, i'd reach, i'd reach
i'd reach, i'd reach so
much higher...

The Meaning Of My Name

Gregory

Watchful, vigilant : Greek

Having great personal charisma you attract many admirers and are usually surrounded by friends and loved ones. You are very much a people person enjoying conversation and much social activity. A natural leader and gifted in communication you may be drawn toward the fields of writing, speaking or public life. You are a person who needs freedom to move and a constructive outlet for your creative ideas.

Raphael

God has healed : Hebrew

Honest, dependable and practical you tend to have a fairly conservative but determined approach to life. Your intelligence and wisdom means that you are sought out for guidance and advice. Gifted in communication you are philosophical and intuitive and are usually a traveller both mentally and physically. People respect you for your patience, discretion and integrity.


Zhou ming jie

Good fortune seems to smile on you with worldly success and emotional contentment coming to you in abundance. This is not luck but a result of applying your intelligence, will and organised approach to productive purposes. You are a natural leader accepting positions of authority with wisdom and sensitivity. With your inspiring character and generosity to others you attract many friends.

Feeling quite bored so this is what i have found out about my name. But somehow some parts doesn't sound true

http://www.bostonuk.com/names/

Sunday

Yesterday nite, after i came home, played wc3 for a while... Den went to meng's home to lend him FFIX. Stayed there till 1215... came home bathed and was watching the men's 400m individual medley.. Den was chatting with Jin Rong.. den i calculated phelps' speed ignoring the wall.. was bout 1.6m/s and i was telling jin rong that he was swimming over me each second and jin rong was saying phelps was tapping his shoulder. so i told i put it in my nick :Micheal Phelps Swims over me each second... he's oso Jinxing Jin Rong each second( tapping his shoulder)

after went to sleep at around 2am. Woke up at 8am, and got deeleedallee in the bathroom, changed and went to church. Reach dere just in time for the entrance him. Vernon damn lame lor, asking me why i not wearing pink( apparently half the choir was pink.. So coincidental) The homily was a little different from the one i heard at holy family but the msg was the same lar... To be like mary, and give all of yourself in service of god.

Came home.. fell asleep watching cartoons.. den got woken up by my auntie talking to my mum. Every sunday the same one lor, the two of them talk as if one was standing in johore and the other at woodlands, Freaking loud lor. and so i was awoken with quite a bad mood. Went to my Auntie's house in TP, had lunch, celebrated her 63rd bday, watched olympics on tv. Suddenly it started to rain, so we decided to make a move before it got heavier. Guess wad Korkina is still participating in the games, tot she would have retired liao so old 25yr old. Have to say she is just too good on the uneven bars. She has the presence on the floor as well. Okies going to go jogging now ciaoz..

Saturday

Stay Up till quite late yesterday nite... So i woke up like somewhere around 9am.. went to the toilet and ended up sleeping on my parent's bed till bout 10am.. just in time to watch yugioh... so i was partically just watching tv till noon... Den i watched the repeat telecast of NDP while i was doing exercises.. I was just do the stepper until the parade segment ended.. Mum tot i bathed or something cos i was complete wet.

after that i bathed, ate lunch, read the newspaper, den i changed into some presentable den went out.. I din know where i was going until i reach the bus-stop, BK and Kevin wanted me to join them to play pool at paradiz. When i reach emerald, i was like shit, i missed my stop cos i tot they were playing at cuppage, until kevin msged saying that they were at Paradiz.. Reached dere around 4pm... I played a few games, won 2 lost 2 and listen to kevin sad story on how he lost the SIM competition. i left at around 445 to go to the bus stop.. Den i was tinking which church i should go to for mass( last week went to sacred heart, den i been to st. michael's b4 liao.. Din feel like going to good shepherd or Sts. Peter and Paul...) so i took 14 down to Holy Family. It's quite far ar.. Reach dere the first thing i discovered was that there was so many youths and kids dere.. i went to the second floor and was quite awkward cos i couldn't get the down open.Stupid lar nv pull just pushed the door.. So to hide my embarassment( hope no one discovered.. i went to the toilet den went to sit in the gallery on the 3rd floor. I was early so i said 3 decades of the rosary... Soon the mass started... the choir's quite good if not betta den mine.. I mean like mine got 20 ppl 5 guys and the rest gals.. Their is like so much bigger lor...

Beginning i was din know what's the occasion.. den i remember it was the Assumption cos of the magnificat and Hail holy Queen... After mass, was supposed to go meet kevin and all... But den he say he was going home cos he was wid the 07 gang.. Not really interested to hang with the 07 gang and he din wanna meet me.. so i become loner again, go eat alone. I stopped at funan, dunno wad to eat.. saw ya kun and was like there's no seat. Den delifrance got nothing left. Mac's erm after watching supersize me am still a little freaked out. So i walked from Funan to Capitol Building's LJS to eat.. Feel very lonely... Hate the feeling to walk alone when u dun feel like being left alone especially when everywhere u go on weekends u see couples and groups of friends going out together...So after that nth to do.. Just went home... Now at home typing while dad and mum watching TV..

How Beautiful

How Beautiful

How beautiful, the hands that served. The wine and the bread, and the sons of the earth.How beautiful, the feet that walked. The long dusty roads, and the hill to the cross.How beautiful, how beautiful, how beautiful, is the body of Christ.

How beautiful, the heart that bled. That took all my sin and bore it instead.How beautiful, the tender eyes. That choose to forgive and never despise. How beautiful, how beautiful, how beautiful, is the body of Christ.

And as He laid down His life. We offer this sacrifice. That we will live, just as He died.Willing to pay - to pay the price. Willing to pay the price.

How beautiful, the radiant bride. Who waits for her Groom with His light in her eyes.How beautiful, when humble hearts give. The fruit of pure lives so that others may live.How beautiful, how beautiful, how beautiful, is the body of Christ.

How beautiful, the feet that bring. The sound of good news, and the love of the King.How beautiful, the hands that serve. The wine and the bread, and the sons of the earth.How beautiful, how beautiful, how beautiful, is the body of Christ.

Just Remember this song having a lot of meaning.

National Day Holidays

Quite a lot has happened during this long weekend.

First i lost my Hp, left it on the bus. Called TransIsland, they help me find but it's missing lar. So Sad.

Went to the SJI's 152nd Anniversary Parade. I arrived at school at around 430 to watch SJI NCC's POP. it's different from last year's one but there was way too many mistake i tink. My batch was saying how much standard has dropped as compared to the previous years. Aniwae it was quite lame lar, POP's parade form up took up just half of the parade square onli. So stupid, it was because Sir Chan say dun want them in the sun. So the whole land and air unit somehow squeezed in half the parade square. and Ian Chen Yang is the most pro Fella i have ever seen lar, the way he hold the pacestick is so ugly( cos he's holding it his own style) and he can tell me that it look like nice because it's he who is doing it.Den the no. 1 uniform not suppose to have extra lines but some his oso got... cMi

After POP, i chatted with ppl i know, den made our way to the FUP, i talked cock with JT for a while den went to the Grand stage to watch the parade. Ian was parade RSM somehow he's just the RSM job has been minimized, he basicly just got the right marker to march in,( so slack). The parade 2ic oso quite slack ar, just got the whole supporting contigent to march in. Only Daren and Frank did a lot of stuff lor. the rest the parade was quite sian. Onli thing that we were cheering was the SJI NCC(AIR) got Best Air Unit. ( Best Air Unit leh ... A lot of it is our effort). Randall & Kevin was very lame oso, they were like talking cock about what they did last yr during the Award Presentation ceremony. And kevin threatening to shaft the rifle up randall's ass (Kevin angry cos he did get best cadet... Randall was in front of Kevin).

after AP, went to eat, met Shumin and Jasmine at PS, we talked for a while den we joined our gang for dinner at Meridien. Played LAN den went home. Saturday evening went to get a new fone at Hello Singtel @ Orchard super packed. The guy says the SIM card will onli be activated on tuesday.

Sunday morning went for mass. Den discover got Confirmation mass at 10am but i was quite lazy to go for the mass eventhough Julian was confirming. I just went home and was remembering my own confirmation two yrs back and bout Aaron's and Amanda's the year b4. Thinking back always help me renew my faith. In the evening, i played mahjong at meng's house . First time i won lor not bad ar $1. lolz

monday went to watch movie alone( bloodi loner lar). But super crap, the place like all couple one. But the movie was good lar. After walking around for so long, i have discover one important thing, u can always tell who are couples. It's not by looking at them make out or holding hands. Just look at their facial expression u can tell they are couples liao. After the movie, i walked from PS to tiong Bahru for fun, i was dwelling on something dunno wad lar. At tiong bahru, bought two VCDs, Armaggedon and Sweet Home Albama. after that i came home to watch NDP. the parade always looks so cool. Just couldn't stand my mum's comments, very distracting when u watching the parade and thinking about how i was feeling at the parade that i had participated.

I would like to say Happy Bday to Dominic, My musically inclined cousin who is also a good role model.

To my best friend Siong Guan, may we continue to be good friends for life.

And last of all, my dad. He is the person who raised me. A father who doesn't believe in punishment. He has showered me with love, sheltered me from the cruelties of this world and show me the beauty of the life. Happy bday.

Went back to school for AP.. Now Playing lan

aniwae i just lost my HP.Dun ask how..