Buying My Freedom

This is the ironic part about this title. After studying for countless hours over 2 weeks, keeping in my hopes for this semester, it finally ended at 345pm Yesterday when i handed up my POA exam script. From that moment forth i was free. But to do what?
We all work to goals and dreams but when we finally reach it, we do not know what to do and what to feel.

That evening, i went to chinatown, to walk around, and strolled around the place, i found myself on 4th floor of OG looking at Gundams. Then the Freedom Gundam caught my eyes, cos my old on dropped off the shelf and brought. So i played a lot of for this one cos it's a master grade model. meaning got a hell lot more of moving parts. So after i reached home, i spent the next 4 hours building the model and having built a number of models, i have never seen so many parts from A-J. that's like uncommon lor, usually got there's onli until h. and there are so many kinds of sticker, coloured, transparents and decals, and they provided a stand too. But 4 hours is a freaking long time man. At the end of it, there was this sense of Achievement but no one to share it with.

Let's hope that whatever's suppose to happen, happens soon.

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Study Break

Yep Study Break is over, And the Exams are bringing in 8 hours' time and what is my head right now which are not as impt as the facts for tomorrow's Paper but somehow if i don't type it out, i don't i will be able to focus. First of all Happy birthday to me, yes i'm 18 i.e i can watch a M18 movie, learning drive, drink and enter the Army.But what's more impt is that i'm glad that i have friends that actually remember my birthday. Though i would have wished that those that were once my best friends would remember and just sms but nvm i guess. It's not quantity that matters but quality. I'm glad i have friends who will go out of their way to spend time to celebrate my bday with me.

Next time, i really wished GOD made a stronger person. Strong as in Superman, not i'm mean emotionally strong, BRAVE, Courageous. Why am i saying this, there are so many times, that i just feel like going up to that fella who's smoking and give him a piece of my mind. Or actually walking up to a stranger and strike a conversation. Another ting, I dunno why i feel so hopeless, going through all those leadership courses and all those stuff, i can still be that hopeless and indecisive boy looking up at that statue and say "someday, i'm gonna be just like him"

I spent Maundy thursday with the Legion ppl and you could have seen how much have changed. Not just us, being no longer in SJI, but how much we all have growned and all of us feeling so tired and missing our times we had at sji. And observing the sec 1 and 2, i cannot onli say how different they are from us. This group of sec 1s went up to this J2 gals in church and ask for her no. I mean like okies, she's quite pretty but the location cannot be worst and still they asked. If it was me, i wouldn't have asked. But den again it's just me. Good Friday passed quickly with me sleeping through the afternoon and den saturday went by really quickly with me trying to squeeze econ and BMGT into my head before meeting my pals to discuss about DOTA and Competition it was damn fun to just lame around using lame hero to push our way to towers in 28 mins.

Today watched, this show called MISSMATCH and i come across a new term "Love Addict". now seriously, i feel like one too, be in love with love and what it represents instead whether it exists anot.

And so i think i will end here to leaving many tings unanswered and can't be bothered to say cos i too sick to answer. Till My next update most prob after MAEC chaoz

The inevitability of change

It's been a really long time since i've last blogged. Well it's not so much that i don't want to blog or have nothing to blog but more like i didn't had the time(at one point), and at the other time while i'm at home, i just can't blog cos my com is in the living room and you never know who will be behind you while you're blogging. So you can very much guess that's i'm not at home, and i'm definitely not in school at this kind of time. So where the hell am I? i'm not telling.


The Inevitability of change

Changes are taking place every moment of our lives, every second that we have breathe and is going to breathe. We are going to grow old, change from an infant, to a toddler, to a schooler, a teen and eventually an adult before finally being an eldery awaiting his end. This is a fact of life, even if we don't want it to happen, it will. With each passing day, we become more matured and have a better understanding of this world we live in both and that is why there are so many questions that i had never asked are now popping into my head.

Why izzit that the world is the way it is. Why am i a guy and not a gal? why that i feel so insecure of myself so much uncertainty...And why izzit that i want changes to take place but the changes that i want to see take place are not? Why~!~!~!~!




The Good & The Bad

In span of three weeks, that seemed so long then, now feels so short. A lot has happened and i think that there were a number of good things

First the bad stuff, I mean these past weeks had been very fucked up for me i guessed. first my laptop spoilt and till now is not completely repaired yet and den no matter what i did for the past weeks had turned out bad. Seriously hope that this bad shriek will turn for better. And the damn feeling is back again. It's seriously haunting me. Must be because of the many movies i've been watching talking about love and happy endings, the wedding mass that i've been singing for. What am i talking about? i'm talking about relationships. Yes BGR. I hope to one day be in one but the truth is that i don't need it now. So ironic that i'm saying i don't have a gf and i don't need a gf and all when i feel so lonely sometimes start to think that wouldn't it be great if i had a gal who would listen to my displeasure and why don't i have a gf now. Oh well when the time is right, it will happen i guess.

Now the good stuff and i have to say it aint must okies mayb my POA and MAEC result are not too bad( yet not too bad onli could have done betta) BCA dun even want to talk about it, my A is barely in range with all those careless mistakes i've made. WCOM looks screwed so i'm not thinking about it at all. Okies that's bout it for the good stuff about me. But i'm happy for a lot people too. For my juniors who did relatively well for the O'lvls. Some of them did do badly but i guess they still more or less happy and decided where to go. I still how fucked up the decision and transition was for me. And also quite happy for Anthony cos he passed his chinese. He got a D7 ya, he happy with it cos knowing him, if he din't fail chinese it's all good.

i actually have more to type but somehow i feel kinda brain drained just typing for such a long time. Anyway, Happy Bday to Pravin, Royston, my niece Rena, and of cos me, we're gonna be one year older very soon. Just a matter of hours now.