How Long has it been?

It's funny how time creeps up on you... Sometimes, you feel that time is moving too slowly and you can't help but wished it accelerates... And Others, you feel that there just ain't enough time..and wish that you could just stop time..

Yesterday, i met the Legion Peeps for Dinners and we talked for close to 2hrs at pasta mania and you discover that everyone has changed. Not as in our personalities but our appearance, what we have been doing has become so distinctively different, our lives have changed. For better ? or For worst ? What has keep us in contact is now just a fragment of the past that we had shared together, the four years in the SJI, 4 yrs in legion of mary, 4 yr in QOAS, the 2 yrs in 2e3. It makes you now wonder what has God planned for us?

Today, i went to went my ancestors at the columbarim, and one thing i discovered was the year. Each time you go back to visit their graves, you discover the the different from the time the died to the present date is always increasing. But when we live each day as it comes, wondering why life is so boring, why there isn't anything special happening, why the special some1 hasn't come along, you nv seem to notice that time is passing us by and not looking back. It was not long ago when i sister ann died. But visiting her grave, i suddenly discover that it has already been ten years.

I used to think that getting to the end is all there is to life, but i am wrong, it's not about getting dere. It's about how we get dere. Will we get dere alone, will we be rmbed when we leave this world, will our name be just another combination of letters on a crumpled piece of death certificate?

This is the cruelty of time, no matter how hard we try, we can never turn better time. No matter how hard we try to foresee our future, we can never really predict what happened.

Saturday

okies, morning got my last paper for OB, seriously hoping for this one to get A oso, but den again it's OB, it's a blardi humanity, just words, words and more words. I really hope can ar as i do for the rest of my subs...

Anyway after skool, went home, slack up to 2plus, went to kevin's house to play DOTA for a while den went do to ps to play Virtual Tennis, kevin master liao lar super pro. Den i went to atrium arcade playing TC, the player1 gun of TC2 a bit spoilt liao. Den TC3 was damn careless, i wasted 3 life for no reason so din complete the game, but still made it to stage 3.. After that went to TP to meet the legion ppl for mass. Mission Sunday.. never knew so damn long lor, 1.5hrs. Hope STC's will be a normal length onli. went to eat at pasta mania den talked cock with Mr Ang, Mark and Thomas until 10 while the rest of the guys left earlier to go play lan.

After that went home, i reach orchard, decide to alight and take 65, reach bus see 65 in the distance and decided to do something crazy, i ran to the next bus stop to catch the 65 that was arriving at this bus stop, in the end i caught it lar ,den took it home. Alighted at Theresa Ville and sprinted all the way back home. A

Played DOTA with Ant and Kevin first game okies, den meng came and kao eh cannot make it sia he like trying to piss ppl off liddat lor. best part dunno wad reason wan... okies need to go sleep gotta wake up by 8 tomolo

Catching a Break

Okies.. today went back to skool with zixin & kevin, supposed to get our CLT forms signed by in the end i came to the conclusion i had in sec 4 nah..lolz... den kevin din want to go alone not that he is ( he would be going with his part people which he doesn't want to lar ), so sad i pang seh him.. but come on lorh, dun really like the idea of being a clt although i would like to help out at SJI lar...

after sat in JT's car for one hour plus, he drove us from skool to his home in sembawang den tiong bahru den to liat tower for break... we talked a lot of cock and he ask me to sign up for NYAA gold with him, cos he can help me back track onli prob is to find residential, cip and expedition lolz... not much of a diff lar, but i dun mind, backtracking helps a lot. +plus he say he will help me validate stuff, so it's much easier for me lolz...

Okies should be getting back to studies one last paper tomolo.. OB, ya damn lame lor, 5 day work week lor, next sem betta dun have sat paper man... waste my friday away sia... tomolo going to have gathering with the legion ppl, can't wait to see them, miss a few of them, esp Mr Ang, Gideon go lar...

Catching a Break

Okies.. today went back to skool with zixin & kevin, supposed to get our CLT forms signed by in the end i came to the conclusion i had in sec 4 nah..lolz... den kevin din want to go alone not that he is ( he would be going with his part people which he doesn't want to lar ), so sad i pang seh him.. but come on lorh, dun really like the idea of being a clt although i would like to help out at SJI lar...

after sat in JT's car for one hour plus, he drove us from skool to his home in sembawang den tiong bahru den to liat tower for break... we talked a lot of cock and he ask me to sign up for NYAA gold with him, cos he can help me back track onli prob is to find residential, cip and expedition lolz... not much of a diff lar, but i dun mind, backtracking helps a lot. +plus he say he will help me validate stuff, so it's much easier for me lolz...

Okies should be getting back to studies one last paper tomolo.. OB, ya damn lame lor, 5 day work week lor, next sem betta dun have sat paper man... waste my friday away sia... tomolo going to have gathering with the legion ppl, can't wait to see them, miss a few of them, esp Mr Ang, Gideon go lar...

Yesterday Once More

Okies, a bit of a slacker, yesterday after CIP, went for guitar, den play pool with randall, ek and bk. BK just got gf liao leh... name's jaime i tink aniwae... after that i jogged home from Clarke Quay, i took the long way and reach home around 1020pm. Den i bathed and play wc3 with kevin and meng. i slept somewhere round 3am. Woke up at 1030 but lazed until about 11... watched digimon, ate lunch den went to tiong bahru plaza for a while, i was feeling quite sian again lar, the place seemed so familiar but the people seem so unfamiliar.. Watched yesterday once more... damn romantic.. about this couple husband and wife who are thieves, they steal tings for leisure and livelihood. den the husband( andy lau) decides to get a divorce after he is diagnosed with a terminal diease(onli later part of the show den u knwo lar). aiya go watch lar...

Damnit

Dunno lar.. Feeling kinda wierd today, must be because of lack of sleep in the morning... After the econs paper, cannot guage lar, that why i hate humanities never know whether u can scored or not, let's just hope, i can scrapped an Ad or at least an A lar. it will make me feel better knowing that Uni is not a unattainable goal.

After paper, walked with diana, andrew, clarence & deborah for a while before i left to go to orchard. I met Jun Sheng and Jasper, sort of missed them lar, Jun Sheng always smiling lar, very radiant personality. I mean when we sec 4 dat time, in ncc, i was like always damn stress but den see what the medics are doing ncc suddenly feels fun again. and so they alighted at heeren, while i went to the atrium to play arcade, i tell u if u saw playing the way i was playing u could tell i was in some sort of a daze lor, i mean like i was practically let the bullets hit me. After playing, i went to the bus stop to take 65. Den 65 always damn lag one lar, so i took 14 den at Great World, i saw 65 behind alighted and took the bus home. I reached home, still like some sort of a daze, best part i know i should be hungry but i din feel hungry ( i mean like i din have anything for breakfast and it was like 2pm) but den mum ask me whether i wanted to have lunch, so she cooked for me, while i stared blankly at the computer screen.

After lunch, i decided to start revising for CIP which is the whole damn book lar. I read a little den fell asleep, was awoken but the tv outside at around 4 but i decided to try and sleep a little,thinking of burning midnite oil.

You know something farni, onli ppl on my contact in my good friend actually, msg me on msn leh, it's like quite sad lar. the rest of the time i need to initiate the conversation and when i become really stagnant rite, it just feels like i the onli idiot in the conversation.

Den dunno why today, talk a lot of cock to my sis while she was complaining about how the skool she's teaching in sux. And that student was learning for the sake of scoring in exams and not for love of the topic being taught. But i guess i'm guilty of that too lar. It not that we don't like the subject , if we dun like, we won't taking it liao, it more like cos our grades sux, so adding the redundant info is gonna make us more confused and more stressed when we freeze during the paper

Micro

Okies screw micro... dunno how to bloodi explain in my own words so most prob cannot score liao... my Ad looks QUITE far away but heck lar.... The Future is as bright as the promises of god. As long as i did my best which god witnesses, it's ok. Life is not just about results... and performance

BSTA

Bstats 2929 damn it man, what a crappy stuff, i forgot the formulae for CI the last part the hypothesis questions killed me until now about 27 marks gonna alrea... that's like 13.5% omg. so much lar.. it's take miracle for me to get a Ad liao... heck lar let's just go study micro... imagine u being that small insignificant fella in this oversize world.. well that's micro econs :)

Saturday

Today i woke up late, what to do went out with the guys at nite den meng came over to borrow VCD den we watched anime.. ya 12MN lolz we watched up 130am den after that he went home( which is like the next block lolz).

woke up at but 9 plus den on tv and discovered that channel i got no cartoon. Den i discovered something else, the whole house was empty as in no one in except me. So i did some exercise, while watching tv for close to 2 hrs, den i showered and changed and went out to study, i went to S.A.M. and was wondering what i was doing dere, den i walked to paradiz centre to study den until 515. Den i walked to Sts. Peter & Paul church. the mass was dunno what to say lar, the priest like half asleep when he was sharing the homily den the organist was like purposely holding the keys the mass like dead. I mean i dozed off den when i woke up the aunt and uncle beside also had their eyes shut lor.

Aniwae after that met Ant for dinner, he was in his skool PE t-shirt, but he convinced me to sneak in by the back and go play TC2. Not bad lar, we completed the game in 6th position, den we went down for dinner and MOS. The whole i was trying not to talk on the topic of bgr den he was telling all some of his bgr prob. And dunno what his prob damn lame, at mj when we looking at CD he was saying he would screw this and that celebrity one day and i was like "..." Damn lame lor... But overall it was still a fun outing, we saw randall matthew and sheena but they din see us or hear us for that matter.

at the bus stop i waited damn long for 65 but i got fed up and took 14 instead but best part was i forgot to alight and tiong bahru so i ended at bukit merah and i was like argh heck i'll walk home, two stops onli, and so i'm back home now

Wednesday

Today morning, browsed through times magazine, went to watch white chicks, after that strolled around TBP, walked into U2 so the strips shirt and polo damn nice felt like buying but den just walked out and walked one stop den took a bus to chinatown, sat at the macs to revise bstat, basically just remember how to use the steps, den went for guitar, after loitered around chinatown mrt with BK and Randall. after that, two of his gal friends came and we went to take a bus, i some how directed them to a bus stop where there was a 197. So Sorrie, tot got mar, this shows that we should all check the sign to see which bus stops here.

Happy Bday

Happy Birthday Alex

okies alexander ng li de is a really good friend, got to really know him in ncc, plus we take bus home together for 4 years den most of the time we would crap, but half way we would be too tired den go to sleep. Rmb we always have to stand until Far East bus stop cos the bus will be flooded and will onli become deserted at far east. Rmb the time, we always complain about training den about how the part c are not good etc etc. Those were the good times, but hey now oso not bad, we still go out at least once a week to play pool/ catch a movie. May our friendship last forever.

my significant others

I Think i now know i got another significant other, after chatting with him, i couldn't sleep well and spent the whole nite thinking. The other time, i actually felt like this was when she chatted with me.

well becos of that i didn't sleep very well, den i was have a kind of a dream where everything was just flashing past. Spent the day slacking, evening went to play pool with gareth and kevin, u should see my face and kevin, gareth's first reaction:"why u all so sian?" Daniel was playing wid his face. Afer we played for 1.5hr, we went to eat dinner. at Mos we saw a group of CJ ppl and there was kenny son( dunno how to spell his surname) but he like kiam pa liddat lor.

Den we saw roger but din feel like talking to him. de javu about to happen. we were taking the lift to 7th floor to play arcade after dinner. at b1 there was the CJ ppl( we din want to see that bastard again). ground floor, there was randall and his hair well i have nothing to say. we den joke say 2nd floor confirm will see JT. But in the end din lar. on the 7th floor we saw roger( whom we din wan to see oso omg wad is wrong with this day) I went to play VC3 and i die on the 3rd scene so sad. Then i tot playing tc2 could make me feel better but somehow i lost 3 life on the first stage for no reason and i died on the second stage. Come on lor, i complete the game all the time and somehow i die on the 2nd stage wtf...

I left after that, while they went to the atrium. I took a long jog home from ps. Jogged from Park Mall to Somerset MRT, den to Youth Park, den Grand World, den tiong bahru plaza den home. i stopped bout 5 times, a lot on my mind, started at 750 reach home around 817 no too bad lar... okies i gonna sleep liao hope tomolo will be a better day

Me

I was looking at my cupboard, there were two plague, My Outstanding Cadet awards in Sec 2 & Sec 3, my pri 2 trophy for coming in first in some team event, My Wing Gundam and My Freedom gundam. Each of em had and still has an important significance, to remind me of who i really am, the person who strives for excellence, the person who go out of his way, if he has the power to do it, he will do it, to always look at tings positively. But somehow i have forgotten who this person is, who is this person i see in the mirror. Izzit really me~!~!Is the person i am now the person i ought to be? I found the last piece of decoration that is quite impt. a display picture my parent gave me when i was pri 3. the quote reads " The future is as bright as the promises of God"

Destiny

God, the creator of this world, the lord of us all.He made each and every one of us different. some of us are short, some of us are tall, some intelligent, others well not so smart, but one thing he made us similar for all to have a path to take. Call it destiny, call it fate, call it faith, but it is a path he has set for us. it is a path that is never straight, it is not always smooth, it is never what we call dull.

What is my destiny, i am this pencil of god who is now just scribbling rubbish, it seemed that what i writing/drawing has no significance whatsoever but only time can tell what this is. God has give a sign, what am i to, what have you plan for me. The pencil that is broken can be sharpened, the flamed that has died can be rekindle, all it need is a sign.

Gundam Seed Destiny

Yes After waiting for so long, it has finally aired in Japan. I just downloaded the raw and watched it. It's really superb first episode.

The story begins with Shin and his family evacuating Orb cos the OMNI is attacking Orb(see epi38 GS). Somehow his family dies in a blast, he is left devastated and scarred. Interesting thing to note is that Shin family looks like Kira's foster parents. After there was the opening theme. The opening theme as usual leaves us wanting to see more of the blardi show cos it leaks all this extra info out.

after OP, we are on Plant with Athrun and Cagali, they were talking to the new Supreme Council Chairman, about him arming Plant etc etc. while that is happening , 3 EA pilots, 2 guys one gal( gal's name is Stella, suppose to have love affair with Shin later... how i know the opening theme lar) attack a factory and steal three new gundam, Abyss, Gaia & Chaos. Cagali and gang were inspecting the base that got attacked lar, so somehow, athrun & cagali got into some zaku and suai suai dio spotted by the gundams when the zaku got activated so gaia attacked den chaos joined in. Chaos chopped off one arm and seem like athrun and cagali are doomed but den the saviour arrives, Shin arrived his in sword impulse to help( long combining sequence) den after that the first epi ends with a cliff hanger sian...

tuned in next week for update on GUndam Seed Destiny

How Could it Be

David~!~!

Called me bias lar, but i seriously think jerry can't sing and his supporters are quite tone deaf. I mean like comeon lor, i was at the live recording, i know how good the singers are lar, David wasn't bad lor. Chris wasn't singing to the genre so nothing to say lar , but i mean like why is jerry not in the bottom 2 super gay. David i'm sorry u had to be the scapegoat this time. To all Jerry supporters pls listen before u vote.

My First Time to Caldecott Hill

Wimbledon

Just watched wimbledon yesterday, the jokes are seriously quite the lame, typical british humour but overall it was nice lar, the tennis action quite lame, but the love story was nice. I think the message the director was trying to convey was that we need to have love and support.


Singapore Idol "The Final Nine"

Went to Mediacorp to support Chris. It was my first time at a "live" recording. Overall it was a great experience. Yesterday, those who i tot sang well was Leandra, Maia, Taufik, Olinda. Chris was ok lar i tot, onli that his rock and roll song sounded like some love song. Like he was trying to serenade some gal on TV liddat.

I Preach Love, But Do I Love?

Love Is always patient and kind; it is never jealous; love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offence, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.

Therese's Canticle of Love


How Great and tender is our God
Who has smiled on the lowly
Eternally my heart will sing
A new canticle of Love


Come all who hunger, all who thirst
All who long for fulfillment
The God of mercy waits for you
AS a mother her child
Oh Come to the living water
Fear not your weakness
Forever trusting in God's merciful Love


Beneath your gaze I've blossomed Forth
As a rose in the sunshine
With joyful heart i've given all
To the mystery of love
In peace i will come before your
with empty hands
Relying solely on your merciful love.


Transformed in love's consuming fire
Lifted up in glory
Her fragrance filling all the earth
Drawing us after her
Until, in eternity we join in one chorus
Forever singing of God's merciful love.


God's Merciful love....

The few facets of my life

thursday

Monday, wanted to go jogging but it was raining and freaking cold. Cannot believe, for the past few days i've been sleeping with the fan on the lowest speed + a sweater to keep warm. The weather's freaking cold.

in the afternoon, i went for a jogging, did some sprints, and jumping jacks. after that i went back home to bath, msg kevin to go out watch movie. So we met at PS to go watch RE:A. Me, meng and kevin watch the movie together on the second row. Super crap lor, cos the action sequence was very fast. Super painful for the eyes. After the movie, we went home and played DOTA

I created the class email, blog, and signed up for the class tagboard. the class blog is tb03.blogspot.com. Class email is tb03_rulez@hotmail.com

Friday

Went for LMS, after lms went with the peeps to SIM to eat. I onli drank peppermint green tea, wasn't really thirsty. After lunch, clara went to meet her bf, amy and denise left together, den me, kendrick, clarence, jonathan and wee hon went to play pool at Mambo. We play until around 130. Den i took a bus to AMK, from dere i walked to NYP for fun to meet kevin, den we made our way down to orchard to buy tickets for New Police Story.

Den we went to play arcade. I went to play tc2. Kevin super fast die liao so left me playing .But super lame leh, there was three ppl looking at me play. I was like aint the game bloodi old liao look at me play for wad. Aniwae, the gal was quite cute, esp when she was smiling. I finished the game in 7th position. No bad after not playing for close to 5 months.

den we went to play pool at monstercue in meridien with gareth. We played 1v1. I was figuring out how to work kevin MP3 while they played. After that we went back to the arcade to look for zixin and brendon. Gareth played, Xmen VS streetfighters. super farni lar, all he does is the finishing moves and air combi so the it was mainly just for a laugh. after that we went to watch the movie, super farni. most important question is, how come there is a table on roof of the Convention Centre.

after the movie, we went to the atrium, played world combat with meng, alex, kevin.brandon was playing marvel vs capcom, zixin was playing kof, gareth was on the Xmen vs streetfighters again. damn lame.

after that we left.

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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