Frames

I took off my frameless spectacles and wore my plastic black-rimmed spectacles(for NS-use). There was something different with what i was seeing. The new sight came along with a slight headache, a sudden quicken heart rate and a gush of uncertainty and fear. Words like 'Fear', 'Restrictions', 'Obligations', 'Rules & Regulations' surfaced. And then came the realization that life's gonna change.

The old and boring "sight" suddenly felt vast and wide, bringing along with it massive potentials of love & happiness, success. Unlike the vision through the dark-frames where things seemed more rigid and inflexible with only one way out i.e. surviving the one yr 10 mths.

Having said all that, i have to admit that i should been more focused with the many things in my life, because the freedom in the hands of someone as ill-disciplined as me has left me unfocused and at the end of it not much progress. My ideals are too big and far too wide to fit into a single frame. You would have to step back to get the full picture. But if you did that, you would have lost much of the clarity and focus. What i and most people's dream is too big for one person alone. And the only way out is to share the dream with others: our many friends, family(s).

Even that is a long shot, for most one in their sane mind would place you in greater importance over themselves unless of cos he/she is truly, madly and deeply in loved with you. And so it come down to this notion of Faith, Fate, Destiny, God's Will, living on a day by day basic, believing that each action, choice, decision you make is the one that will bring you closer to the end, to meeting the people you need to meet. No Man is a island, Your Dream of Happiness is every man's dream eventhough each person journey towards it is different.

I used to believe( yeah like until a few minutes ago) that if i had the heart, the will, the determination, i would be able learn everything there is to be know, but i guess one has to surrender to the fact that there's is just too much to know. If we are to go far, we need to move forward together, as friends,as a family, one society, one nation.

Impt Quotes to Remember.

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish
The Journey of A Thousand Miles Begins with a Single Step
Live Each Day As If It Is Your Last

Moving Forward

Well i'm haven been blogging for a while. So what have i been up to? not much. hmm
there's graduation. a family holiday to malaysia, den there was slacking, slacking, out wandering on the streets, watching a few movies here and there. lol. seriously bumming has never felt so good.

so in summary, graduation was alrite. onli sad ting is i din take enuff pics with the guys and gals. And finally the realisation that the next phase in life is NS,Uni and the slogging your ass off for a future for yourself.

Then it was off for our family holiday, and suddenly u realise that i missed out alot of the happening in the family. Like how my aunt's boyfriend has parkinson's disease. How my dad has suddenly become an uncle... and how my sister deciding that there are still things that she doesn't need to know about his kid brother. And how my mum and aunties had been wishing to go on a family holiday together for the longest time and took so many years for it to materialize when they're already in their 50s and 60s. But i guess it was still a great holiday. This holidays has been pretty good despite all the hiccups. Going on holidays when you're surrounded by nature, the peace and quiet of the elements still has all the romanticism, serenity and rustic charm. I managed to finish reading the Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho when u tink i'm a fanatic or wad i'll have to say his books are good. It's bout the process. The means may not always justify the ends but sometimes we all dream that it'll ideally would.

Yesterday, someone told me i was deep and reflective. I can't help but laugh because it's not true. I'm sure everyone tinks about their life from time to time. Some like to tell them to their loved ones, some to their best friends, i just happened to like to do it on a blog or an diary whatever u call it. Today i was packing my room( to applease my nagging mum) so yeah and i decided to clear out 3/4 of the Time Magazine in my room. I left onli a few issues about the influential ppl and person of the years ones because i tink they are interesting. Reading all the magazine, u see the articles regarding the major issues like politics, wars, health, disaster and from time to time sports, fashion and technology and those person of the year stuff. Sometimes, i browse through them and mutter to myself that the person who wrote this article is wasting his time cos i'm not reading it and den i realise that what i type here may/may not make any sense to the people who chance upon it. But it none the less is an outlet for me, a personal achievement, a expression of passion & love. for what?

For my life that's filled with hope, despair, love, hate, courage and fear and many many other contradictions. A testimont that i'm only human, there are things i can/cannot do, i not always right and i can something missed be concerned about the small things and missed on what's really impt.

A Company of Heroes

And so, Graduation 2007 has taken place, i've worked 3 yrs towards a diploma which in actual fact i had the slightest idea what it all entailed at the beginning. And like everyone stab in the dark, trail and error experience of my life, i have finally realize that the most important things life are still friends and family.

I'm encountered, acquainted and befriended not a company of friends but a company of heroes. Each one with their unique story to tell. That trials and tribulations of rushing deadlines, completing project work, managing team conflicts, handling politics, casual gossips, boy-girl relationship, pursuit of a dream. I thanks you for sharing this flicker of a life time with me. All your stories have enriched my life.


Most people know me better than i know myself. A moron and a kid who sits by and watch the world pass him by. And one day, some day not far away, i'm sure i'll learn the true of meaning to letting the opportunity slip through your fingers cause of laziness, fear. Well i guess, i feeling it already. Each time a bubble bursts, the number of people who's really left standing beside you is a reflection of the family of friends i've seeked built.

Hopefully some day, there was someone to share my story to. The story of average joe, who meet the everyday people and live their everyday life. Hoping to make it big in some way or another, to leave a legacy of not only having to converted oxygen into carbon dioxide but also able to say I have ran the race of life with every step etched in my heart and I finally reach the end.

Life is never about the end, It is about the journey to reach the end.

For A Moment Like This

As you gaze upon a star in the heaven, it glimmers and glows. a little more brightly and then a little less shiny. Do you ever stop to realise that with every cycle of sparkling, the star move closer toward its end? Heck there are even some that had already died million of light years ago, but the star's light has just momentarily reached us?

A firefly glows ever radiant throughout the night just to die the very next morn. Why are things made this way?

Your life's worth for a moment of (Fill in any positive emotion, or adjective). I wouldn't have it any other way.

This is the very fact of how life should be lived.

Early Morning

Well, ever since the holidays began, how often would u see me awake at this time of the morning? ans: i haven seen my bed last nite. am i utterly sleepy? not at all. on the contraty, i'm pretty much awake. It is during this waking moments that i can be hear myself clearly and tell you truthfully that "time has simply passed me by and i've haven been able to do the many things that i've set out to do. Realistically, could they be done? well with utmost motivation and determination and something class time management. it would have been possible. But guess all i've managed so far is to meet up with the peeps, do a little nyaa, meet up with other and realise that there are many things in my life that needs to change.

From simple things like,making my bed, clearing out the unwanted stuff(seriously) not simply packing to many more things that are need a help like being a better person, a friendly person, a more confident person and of cos a more loving one. Oh yeah, Ocean's 13 is a must watch and Hula Girls is surprisingly good as well. There are many more topics i wished i could write here but i can't to rmb them at the moment