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Your personality is best represented by the
traditional Japanese Katana. You are brave
beyond words and rarely (if ever) act for your
own personal gain. Your honor is very
important to you, and you strive to better
yourself and help others. You try not to let
emotions get in the way of making a sound
decision, and are usually quite successful.


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You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

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You are a half angel. You can't seem to find your
wings to fly off into happiness. You often
seem depressed but really your trying find
something that you sometimes don't even know.
You can't help but feel lost and so sometimes
loose faith in what comes ahead but even if you
do find what your looking for you keep the
happiness inside but none the less you are a
kind person.


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Hi, it's me again.... Well today's one of those days that i feel rather touchy. think it's cos of the fact i have very little interaction with ppl today. I guess i was rite to say that i would probably die or become one very very miserable bastard in i got stranded on an island alone.

Anyway i started out the day going to the esplanade library to study yep. I need a quiet place to read. So i took a cab down cos i was just plain lazy lar. and i have to start that the driver is a really pain in the ass lar. I want to rest a bit on the cab and he was like asking me stupid question like which i want to go when i discovered he already decided on the way there. Such an ass. And because of that route, i wasted like another 50cents at the very least cos he made one very big turn around marina. Idiotic. So anyway i was dere till bout 2pm before i headed to the bus stop to decide where to go. Cos i was a little drained from 2 whole hours of reading. And u know that when u're start losing ur focus, something else pops up in ur mind and u'll be like telling urself to concentrate. well that was it, i was like that on the bus. bout 240 i found myself at harbourfront. before i eventually decided to go home to continue my studying. But the reason i dun study at home was usually because of the TV, the heat and of cos all those weird noises. the lorry parking and u'll hear those funny beng music when they reverse, the children at the playground etc etc..

somehow i ended up watching cartoon on tv for a while before i went back to study and now i quite afraid i will do badly because i feel so insecure and not prepared. it's like i've prepared myself to do one thing go in and bullshit. and this feeling totally sucks. Gonna try and relax and den go back to studying

Hi it’s me again and now I’m not afraid to say that I’m abusing my blog and I’m sorry offend anyone. Cos I am definitely in a foul mood. Well let’s begin…

You know how it is that everyone loves Saturdays. Not having to wake up in the wee hours of the morning to go to school or work for that matter. You can sleep in late, then when u wake up u can watch TV, enjoyed that morning breakfast, listen to some music or whatever thing u do.

Well it’s just so weird that this Saturday is another one of those Saturday which I dread so much having nothing to look forward to. I woke up around 8 plus, thinking to myself “hmm what do I have planned for today”. Well the answer was pretty straightforward as there was nothing to do and so I went back to sleep. And u all must think that I’m crazy now because here is a fella who can sleep in late but doesn’t want to, is he nuts? Ans: I tink so too. I’m one of those crazy fellas who complains when there’s not enough time to do things but I’m oso one of those crazy fellas who complains that there is nothing to do when I have a little time to spare.

By the time I woke up, I was watching all those cartoons on Kids Central.. yeah PPG, Sonic X, Grasazier( dunno how u spell it ). Which was pretty much senseless to me, I was pretty much watching my life away, wasting time on cartoons and not knowing what else is there to do. Study you say, yeah, tried nothing goes in.

Saturdays are not the best to go out to study either. You know why? First you’ll be spammed by the mobs ( okies I mean the crowds); groups of teenagers out with their friends, loving couple smiling and holding hands, couples who are fighting in the public, couples who decides to fight and then break up and oso the whole family( father, mother, daughter, son, Grand daughter, grandson, great grand …. U get the pic) Going out alone is like the stupidest thing which I’m like always doing.

So yeah I decided to leave home soon after to do some studying outside and I ended up at liang court, first I checked out the place I usually study but the place was not conducive now due the ezone below and then I went to Macs and I tell u, if u were dere u would have tot that I was crazy or something because, I put my bag down den I was sitting dere for a few seconds before I stood up found another seat and den after that I walked out cos I decided not to stay there.

Now here more crazy things I did today, after that I walked yeah walked all the way to Dhoby Ghaut MRT to play my Striker 1945 III. I tell you this is like the onli thing that is keeping me sane. U know when u’re alone, ur mind is either very focused on something or it’s like wandering off to dunno where. Yeah my mind was wandering off to dunno where as usual and it was giving me this spinning headache and I was like so gloomy that I look into the reflection, I look so different. So anyways I reached there Atrium, I played 2 round. The first time was damn pathetic, my mind drifted off at right around the 5 stage and I lost 3 lives on that stage and it was so sickening. If I had a hammer, I would have been paying for the machine already. The second wasn’t so bad, I died at stage 6 because I still dunno how to destroy that crazy robot + I still dunno how to dodge the bullets for that robot. Den I was like it might be fun if I took the NEL for fun, which was what I did, it brought back memories of me doing my O’lvl Geog TYS but it didn’t help that I was trying to read IEF. Yeah Just discover Little India is like one stop after Dhoby. Lol. So anyways, I went back to PS dere and now the frustration of not being to study was giving me a headache. And when u’re hotheaded u know what u should do, u should go to the bathroom, wash ur face, then turn on the tap and just wet ur hair and just feel all the cool way run through ur scalp. It was refreshing. That was when I decided to go down to TP to study at MOS, den after that I went for Mass.

The homily was making me speechless, it was like God’s not giving me a choice man, either u’re have to been good or u have to be bad, there was no sitting on the fence. I agree but making a decision and acting upon it was easier said than done man.

After mass, I met mr ang and the QOAS ppl for dinner to celebrate, Gideon, Richard and Jonathan’s Bdays. Yeah I guess we all share the same feeling when we say that we miss SJI a lot. It had something to do with the single gender thing where we could just crap and crap and crap with feeling in awkward position because we were the same. But somehow now u thought that something was funny, there was no one to cover ur back and say that it’s funny. It makes it worst that most ppl dun appreciate ur sense of humour. And I guess we’re all matured enuff to know that relationship was needs more that chemistry/ love to work out.

Well rite after that, we were cracking jokes about being in poly, the science stream and the arts stream. It was really funny I guess. Yeah, my lack of self esteem + inferiority complex is coming back to haunt me. But I just found the best thing to keep me preoccupied. My sketch book and pen. All I have to do is to draw what I like and my problem would go away. Not forever but enough for me to feel good about myself. Yeah Stay positive in can. Better still if u can help me be positive.

Okay Today started out as a very good day. I slept in late, lazed in bed, had lunch at home…den went harbourfront to study. Yeah to study… that was the plan anyway, so I reached HF, I walked around the place, carrying my billabong bag and hugging my rather bulky laptop. It was quite peaceful but somehow I just didn’t felt the urge to study. When I sat down at Macs, I ordered tea. Read Today newspaper by the it was already like 3 plus and so I was like, I better start doing my OM revision but in the end I was like damn distracted and nothing was going. It was like in one ear and out the other and I kept looking around feeling annoyed with a couple beside me keep taking fotos using their fone. So in the end, I got stressed because I couldn’t get any work done. How queer this sounds man.

So after that I gave up and decided to go watch War of the Worlds alone. Aiya wad to do so last minute and as usual loner lar(labeled liao). Overall the movie was good lar. I can related to Tom Cruise quite well cos his situation is very much I will be feeling if I was caught in this kind of a tight spot and to make it worst his own son didn’t understand him. Feeling misunderstood is just so so F***ed Up. So after the movie I headed back to HF to study. Yeah got some studying done. But I think it’s very minimal. Tmr need to study more. By the time I reach home, all I could think of was to feel happy. As in the genuine happiness that can keep you going. I guess that what I’m really seeking in a relationship, happiness but then again. All of our emotions and feelings are subjected to individual scrutiny.

So yeah, I started off with the Prince & Me, about a college gal meeting the love of his life the typical way. Hating him. Den in the end, they fall in love and live happy ever after or something liddat lar. Anyway, there was some lessons in there that are still very vivid like “At the end of a man’s life, he discovers how important his decisions were at the beginning”. And I guess it very true, too true for me that I just decide not the make the decision. And of cos following your dreams no matter wad.

After that I watch Before the SunRise and Before the Sunset, I guess it really nice considering the movie is just talking in real time for 2 hours each. So the first part is about this guy meeting this gal on the train and they begin to talk about their life and stuff. The guy somehow persuades the gal to go gallivanting down Venice with him. And in the end after talking for a god know how long they’re still talking and they fall in love. They part promising to meet up again. Because they didn’t leave anyway to communicate The second part is 9 yr later when they actually meet up cos their proposed meet up failed and they began to catch about their life and stuff like. In the end, they realized that they still loved each other but now need to face up to reality and responsibilities. It’s so tragic and complicated they made the world seem. So my stand is, follow ur heart and live without regrets if u can. Do everything with passion and to the best of ur abilities.

But Somehow I find it very hard to do this. Since my heart is saying one thing and my brain is saying another. Like what if she rejects u. what if u she’s not the one, what if the u done get ur As what if u don’t make to it ur dream job. It seem so hard to follow ur darn hard when u have a mind like mine, always thinking about the possibilities.

Okies this is what happened after the newspaper collection. I have to say that the newspaper collection drive was really fun and carefree and it turn out to be quite well done despite being able to collection less money. I mean look at it way, we were able to attract more people to come and help us at this event. I have to say I’m so glad so many people came eventhough we didn’t really done much marketing. So thank you all who came. Although we didn’t collect more that last year, it’s close. Anyway after the collection, I had lunch with the committee ppl and the serve sabah team. It was quite nice, then after that I left for home alone as usual.

I don’t know what izzit with Saturdays that I always have this kind of bad mood whenever I have to go home alone esp on this day. I guess it’s because I so used to go home with Alexander after NCC on Saturdays, sure miss those days. But I guess we all good thing will come to an end and another good thing will come along. As I was saying, I had went back into hiding in my shell throughout the whole journey. And I was thinking to myself as usual and looking at it now, was I actually tired and resting on the bus home was it because I feel so displaced that I just feel lethargic. Either ways it could be but who really cares man. So after that I went to get my refund from my EZ link card. Before heading home. When I reach home, I showered for about close to 20 mins with cold water before retreating into my own room to rest. I decided not to go for mass today and rest. Mum as usual is angry with for not eating in but I’m not really bothered anymore. If you and I were on the same frequency, I’m sure I wouldn’t mind staying at home more. I mean I’m so stressed out from project and you can tell me to go read the newspaper… WTHeck man… it’s utterly ridiculous… Furthermore, I went to meet Kevin and Co. for dinner. But I decided to make a detour to the atrium arcade just to play Striker 1945 III. It’s like the only game that I use to relieve stress now. Last time, I was such an arcade fanatic, The Time Crisis series, all those airplane games will have took me an hour each time I visit the arcade but now, i’m barely in dere for more than 15 mins.

So I headed to meet them for our usual Saturday outing. Tonite, we didn’t really do much lar, I was basically dere for the company and trying to enjoy and relax. And it did help cos my friends are all very much entertaining. We played pool and arcade cos there wasn’t any computers for us to play Generals or DotA. Then we went to made Rochor Road to buy Dao Hui, we sat on the overhead bridge. After Dao Hui, we made our way home. and on the way home, I was very much deep in thought about dunno what lar, girl? CT? future prospects? Somehow these things are like all so freaking interlinked and i was stressed. So I did the craziest possible after I got back. I told my dad that I was going for a “Walk” at 12md and in the end, I ran my whole neighbourhood, did bout 100 sit ups and 100 push ups to clear my darn mind before I went home to type this entry. Well there’s way more I wanna say but I guess I’ll have to wait till another time.

I’ll like to say thanks to everyone who’s been able to brighten up my days.

It's Life i guess

this week has been a rather interesting one, but i have to say i need to start to buck up or else i'm gonna screw my this sem's results. things that i have to say here simply means that they're not viewed as very sensitive to me.

Well i really rmb wad happened at the beginning of the week but i can sort still rmb the rest of the stuff. So i'll begin on wednesday.

Wednesday, i finished skool at 5 plus and rush like mad to go for my Guitar class which i'm sad to say, i need to buck up in this area too. After guitar, i talking to randall for a while about skool and stuff. Den we were browsing through the pictures in my laptop and he was like eh u laptop got no chio bus one. Den i was thinking to myself. I guess we are all so darn superficial. I mean i by looking at those photos too, i might selected the better looking ones to interact with and ignore the rest. But at the end, it was about getting to know them, mayb not very well but at least a little. So anyway after that i went down to Funan to get my Router cos i was getting so sick of my dad playing the computer when i need to use it. And furthermore, having to do research with the TV in the background isn't very condusive.

Thursday was basically a fun day in skool with me. The last lesson of Social Psychology. Gonna Miss Ms Michelle Lim Min Min & her not say very funny jokes. And it was damn funny when she made me sound very good during my presentation but in the end i got a B+ for it. It funny how it is, i guess i have to be contented with it for the amount of effort i actually put into my ethnography. It was like damn little. It was like a lot of my projects. Final product look good with actually minimal effort put in. i mean seriously, the onli time i've actually rmb actually putting in a lot of effort and not at the last minute would be my Old Levels and my last sem. It was a very consistent and focused effort with no distraction and a clear focused mind. But dis sem, my priority seemed to have changed and i hope they are flexible and change back at the correct time.


Friday, went to skool and use EC to do my IEF again. I mean the lecturor is quite the boring if u ask me. and since he's not say very engaging to the point that i can actually concentrate in doing my work until Lloyd had to keep irritating me lar. i mean seriously when u keep bringing up things that i'm trying to keep low on, it shifts my focus altogether. anyway, IEF tutorial was quite a bore until when Jeremy raised a question with the answer Ms Wong provided the other sem. I was quite shocked he rmbed but more impt, i was unable link the tings together. Damn it man i need to work hard liao.

Saturday, was like the funny thing possible, ok i lost my wallet lar, so i had call a few million places up, Harbourfront Bus Interchange, Tampines Interchange, Transit Link, Library, DBS bank etc etc and of cos Abriel to tell him i'll be late for the flyers distribution. Oh Btw, Thanks for coming down for the flyers distribution, Thanks Liana, Yin Xue, Tian Suey, Bao Ying & Pearlyn Thanks a lot. as i was saying, i went to the bank to make an ATM card lar and my dad was like so frantic while i was like aiya all i need to do is this. Stay calm. It was very funny how different i think from others. I mean i'm gonna take it as an learning experience sure be careful with stuff, etc etc but more imptly i learn wad to do when this kind problem arises again. den i went the flyer distribution and after the distri i went down to TBP to make my Bus Pass. After like eons, i got my card and went home onli to prepare to leave for my baby Nephew( cousin's) Mikael( say Mi-Ka-El). Basket such a poser name. and i'll take this opportunity to say that my name is middle name if u noticed is Raphael and it's not pronounces as RA-FA-EL. it's pronounce RAI-FEAL or something liddat. Dunno how go the www.m-w.com and see listen to how to pronounce. and i have to say one baby's baptism cannot get anymore elaborate. I mean got a small choir and a tiny(bout 10) musicians) and a lots of friends and relative ( say bout 100?) After that, i went for mass and Sacred heart and actually dragged ant to join me. He was like so late lar, barely making it for the Gospel Reading. Den went to meet the guys for dinner and lan and headed home. reach home, went online to discuss wad to buy for Zhi Wei.

And so, on sunday, we met at 1 to buy present for Zhi Wei and okies lar, we deliberately rather long and went to quite a few places before we eventually got a present from G2000. Zhi Wei is so lucky that he didn't get the Zara shirt with the lace man haha. After getting our the prezzie. Went down to PS to met AK and Diana. and Ak is such an idiot. Can't stand him( u know wad u did u idiot... I'll rmb U... U're so blardi guilty, Innocent I dun think so lor). Anyway met Zhi Wei and his wo de tou fa you mei you luan gf who keep saying i act cute. Pls lor, i act cute just make u laugh but most of the time i'm not acting lar...It's natural( ehem I not saying i'm cute cos i don't think i am) Went to get ticket but in the end, we ended up signing KBOX which was quite boring for me, because i onli enjoying rock balads, and contemporary music which is meant to be karaoked cos i can't sing for nutz. Anyway after that, another crop up ended up having dinner with Jas.

and that was very much the end of the day. I've more to say but just not enuff time to do so. esp how i feel about myself. sometimes, i feel just dun understand myself. I feel like a hyprocrite at time.